WEEKLY ASTRO ORACLE: NOVEMBER 26 2019

In her new weekly ASTRO ORACLE videos, Ruby Warrington pulls a card from the Numinous Astro Deck to deliver a group reading for the Numinous community. The series kicks off the week of the November 26 Sagittarius New Moon—which the North Node card tells us is a time to course correct and get back on track with fulfilling our karmic destiny.

Where have you been playing small this year? Afraid to take a risk on living your biggest, most fully expressed life? As we close out the year, let’s give ourselves permission to get messy and get real in the name of exponential growth!

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TAURUS FULL MOON RITUAL TO QUIT FAKING

The Scorpio / Taurus axis invites us to embody our wholeness—which is only ever possible when we quit faking it …

Photo: Pawel Szvmanski

Nobody wants to be a faker—but we do it all the time. The fake smiles, the fake “I’m fine’s,” the faking we’re holding it all together, when inside it feels like part of us is dying. This Taurus Full Moon, can we please make a pact to quit with the faking already, and embody those parts back to life? (If you’re just here for the ritual, it’s at the end of the post. Clue: you’ll need one of these).

Scorpio season is a time for getting REAL. For confronting the raw truths of existence, and the shadow parts we usually work so hard to conceal. When the moon becomes full in the opposite sign of Taurus, it’s shining a torch under the dusty sofa of our psyche. A chance to clean out some of the cobwebs and to prove there are no monsters hiding out there after all, what we find are just the damaged, and therefore “unlovable” parts, we have shamefully been clamoring not to reveal.

Ugh, it’s exhausting, isn’t it? The faking?

I dusted out some of my cobweb/monsters last week, when I wrote about the truth of running a (spiritual) online business (a.k.a. all the ways I’ve tried to monetize The Numinous and failed). It felt risky and whiney and ugly to put it out there, but it had gotten so very heavy I had to get it out of my body. The response, OF COURSE, was a massive out-breath from my readers who are done pretending too (which I’m also guessing is you).

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I’m writing this from Women’s Week at Kriplau. My first time attending a retreat here, having been a presenter many times, I opted into a workshop titled The Alchemy of Writing. Sat on my backjack in this morning’s session, knees hugged tight to my chest, I had been longing for this this moment. A much-needed refilling of an inner cup that, in the past 12 months especially, has given so, so much.

Why was it then, that the expectant camaraderie encircling the other women in the room did not feel like it extended to me? How could it be that I felt this insecure as part of the group, opposed to the times I was leading it. Why, having spent the past two years confronting my fear of public speaking head-on, did my heart begin to pummel the interior of my ribcage at the mere idea of raising my hand to speak?

How fitting that our first writing prompt in today’s session was: “A time when I felt one way and acted another.” Holy mama. Also fitting for Scorpio season, here are the first few lines that stumbled out of me in response:

“I knew I was supposed to say ‘yes,’ and so that’s what I told him. ‘Did you come?’ He needed to know for his pride. We were in his parents’ house, chintzy covers on the bed, the reek of skunk weed clinging to the curtains and the shag-pile carpet. There was no doubt in my mind that he’d been picturing this moment—my deflowering—from the moment that we met.”

And so began a six-year stint (the first six years of my sexually active life) when lying on behalf of my body became my basic MO. Looking back, how could this NOT have led to issues with me “using my voice” in other areas of my life (given the fact that our vocal chords and our vaginas are also intimately connected)? Or me feeling like faking it (including the smiles, the ‘I’m fines’, the pretending I’m not hurting inside) was the proper thing to do?

As with my struggles to ask for what my work is worth, I suspect I am not alone in this one. When I recently interviewed sober sexpert Tawny Lara for my Sober Curious podcast about why she quit faking orgasms in sobriety, she explained that quitting drinking had led her down a path of radical, Scorpionic, honesty. Feeling your emotions in the raw, day-in-day-out, will do that to a girl. In a post on the same subject on The Temper, she wrote: “This honesty eventually crept into the bedroom. I was done adding a performative element to sex. The thought of tightening my pelvic floor while gyrating my hips and moaning in pseudo-pleasure just seemed like too much work.”

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Because the truth is, faking it is the fastest way to drain us of our precious life force energy. In fact, the effort it takes to maintain even the smallest “white lie” could be used to power whole movements; write books; launch and fuel game-changing enterprises; and radically transform lives. Which means, whatever you’ve got squished under your soul-sofa, know that it is sapping you of your very aliveness. But will you have the courage to shine a torch under there and chase it out for good?

You can practice with the small stuff. No more fake smiles. No more ‘I’m fines.’ Notice, as you shun the fake comfort of “fitting in” in favor of a vulnerable just being, how much more deeply you belong to your body temple, like it was waiting for you to inhabit it fully all along.

More, much more, on the energetic invitations of the Scorpio-Taurus axis, with advice and insights from myself, Betsy LeFae, and Bess Matassa, in this month’s subscribers’ only edition of the Now Age podcast.

And as for your Taurus Full Moon ritual? Simple. Put on some smooth tunes, pull out your crystal dildo, and invite your whole, perfectly imperfect self, to COME HARD back into your body. As you commit to never, ever, faking it again.

THE TRUTH ABOUT RUNNING A (SPIRITUAL) ONLINE BUSINESS

What’s next for The Numinous, and the long-winded, behind-the-scenes, real-deal process of how I arrived at this decision (plus some thoughts on running a spiritual online business in the Now Age and the future, or not, of capitalism)

Photo: Ruvan Wijesooriya

Warning: this post is long, messy, and rambling. A bit like my decision-making process for what’s next with The Numinous. I hesitated about posting it, but in the end I needed to write it for me—and, if you’re running an online business, are a spiritual solopreneur, or are overall just sick of selling and being sold to, I suspect there will also be plenty in here for YOU …

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In the weeks leading up to my Numinous sabbatical I’d been gearing up for exactly the opposite: I was preparing to launch The Numinous Astrology School (a.k.a. NAS—kinda like NASA, but without the Astronauts part. Lol). But as I went about putting all the pieces together, the anxiety knitting my shoulders to the back of my skull was a signal that something was off.

On the one hand, I was nervous about the financial investment. Between the artwork, tech build, marketing funnels, and promo materials, it would cost me at least $10K to get it off the ground. That’s not factoring in the countless hours of my own time spent on content creation. And while I’d seen some of my peers make a mint with their digital products, I knew others who’d been burned when the supposedly magical “launch formula” peddled by the likes of Marie Forleo, didn’t work out so magic for them.

It was after I spent $1600 on a 3-minute promo video that looked like something a 5-year-old could have made on an iPhone, that the house of cards came tumbling down, scenes of past launch “failures” flashing before my third eye.

The time I spent thousands on the Numinous sweatshirt line my readers had been so excited for … which only a handful of people actually bought (it took two years to just about break even, and I wound up donating the leftover sweats to the Bowery Mission two Thanksgivings ago). The digital Numiversity courses I created with my then-resident astrologers Bess Matassa and Sandy Sitron, of which we sold about 30 for a total of less than $1K. Divided three ways, my split didn’t even cover one month’s medical insurance.

Why should this time would be any different? I was banking on at least 1000 sign-ups to cover my costs and (finally) generate a sustainable income to offset the hours (years) I have put into building this platform. To foot the bill of maintaining this platform going forward. This represented just 1% of my Instagram following. But based on past experience and given my miserably low IG engagement at the time (due partly, no doubt, to my growing resentment at IG for stealing our attention and creativity to profit an increasingly ethically challenged Zuckerberg empire), even this moderate goal suddenly seemed totally pie in the sky.

And so I quit. Not only did I not proceed with launching the course, I decided to press pause on everything Numinous while I took a big old breath. Created some space for myself to feel into what exactly did want to come next.

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I’m sharing these details because I know I’m not alone in my attempts and my failures to “successfully” launch. Meaning, to create an income from my work that at least covers my rent and basic living costs (in NYC, this totals roughly an eye-watering $7K a month). In the age of side hustles and spiritual solopreneurship, “how to monetize my passion project / healing gifts” has got to be one of the crunchiest conundrums of the Now Age; we want to create a business and a life that serves others as it serves us … and the capitalist systems we are expected to fall into line with in order to do this are often totally at odds with who we are as creators, and what we believe as spiritual beings. Not to mention the basic root of all inequality and exploitation on the planet.

The “create a digital course” model is typically pitched as a way to generate a “passive income,” leaving you free to pursue what you really came here to do—but not only does it often entail subtle manipulation of your intended customer base, it seems more to me like it becomes your full-time job. And what if posting the recommended 25-30 IG stories per day, managing assistants and affiliates, and writing copy for marketing funnels, feels about as far removed as it gets from what your soul incarnated to contribute to the collective in this one wild and precious life?

Which is not to say there aren’t some beautiful, soulful, and generous digital courses out there. If you’ve created a course and / or a library of digital products that deeply serves you and others, fantastic! Some of us have an innate gift for community building that translates perfectly to authentic and heartfelt network marketing.

If anything, my “failure” to turn The Numinous into a one-stop online astrology shop (what well-meaning advisors have been telling me to do with this platform since before it even launched) has forced me to look more deeply at why this hasn’t worked FOR ME. To consider the value of what I actually DO feel called to create—and of MY unique gifts. And, in doing so, to trust fall back into walking my own messy, intuitive, utterly un-formulaic patchwork of a path.

-This has meant looking at what has worked, what space I was creating from when it did, and working out how I can do more of that.

-It’s meant reminding myself, as a writer in a world where “content” often only exists to sell a product, that my words have value in and of themselves. That my words are my product.

-It’s meant a deeper dive into my own lack of worthiness, the ancestral roots of this, and a look at what we value as a society (where we literally put our $$$) and why.

This is a process that remains ongoing, which is pretty much forming the basis of my next book (how to earn a living, or not, as an author: whole other subject!), and which has resulted in me creating a suite of personal services—from book doula’ing, to personal brand consulting, to astrology coaching 1-2-1s—that I’ll be offering going forward. You can learn more about them HERE.

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But what of The Numinous? If you’re reading this, I hope it’s because you’ve found value in this platform over the years. Maybe you’ve missed our mystical missives, and you’re wondering when we’ll be back. And well the truth is, The Numinous cannot continue to exist until it can earn its own keep.

When I launched the site, it was because I’d always wanted my own magazine. My own space to create and commission content that meant something to me, and that I felt contributed something of value in the wider world. And off I went. I didn’t charge a subscription fee (who paid for online media?), and as well as my own writing, I relied on unpaid contributions from writers keen to promote their own offerings to fill in the gaps.

Within two years, in late 2014, I’d been approached by HarperCollins about doing a book, for which I received a $50K advance. Result! This felt like payment for the work I’d put into the platform to date. Five years down the line, I have yet to earn any royalties from Material Girl, Mystical World (and given that only 30% of authors “earn out” their book advances, it’s unlikely that I will)—and I’ve had to find revenue from other streams to support the site and its growth.

Freelance journalism, hosting events and retreats, the occasional paid partnership. More books, some affiliate sales of other people’s digital courses. There were also my Moon Club earnings, the biz I co-founded with Alexandra Roxo, which I exited in Jan this year. I scraped a decent living keeping these plates spinning, until I hit a wall. Here I was, age 43, super “accomplished” by any external measure, and working all the hours—yet eaten up with constant anxiety about where my next rent check was coming from.

The other reason I “quit” The Numinous this summer? Having finally hired a book-keeper, there was no more ignoring the fact that the majority of my earnings were going straight back into this platform—despite it not actually generating any revenue. Sure, it was what had led to my book deals, and what supported the income streams listed above, etc. But when I weighed the time and energy that was going into maintaining it against what I was getting out of it, the scales were waaaaaaay off.

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Shit … is this coming off as some privileged white girl sob story?! I am mega aware that having a publishing deal land in my lap, for example, is a HUGE opportunity, for which I am extremely grateful. I also acknowledge that my previous career in journalism has opened many doors for me. That being straight and white and thin, it has been easier to risk “using my voice” without underlying fears for my safety. And that having husband who (until this summer) brought home a corporate salary also provided a financial buffer over the years.

And I also I know that my story mirrors many of our stories, regardless of our identities and external circumstances. Whether you’re creating a personal brand or are in any way pursuing a more creative career, the sheer volume of work that has to happen behind the scenes to generate even a moderate income, can be overwhelming. And if you don’t have a natural aptitude for IG stories, it can be even more draining. If this is you, I FEEL YOU. (And, going forward, I also want this to be a space for us to talk about the reality of running a digital business in the Now Age.)

Of course, the “smart” thing to do, as may others have advised me over the years, would be to seek VC investment. Use it to hire a team. Build an app. MAKE A FUCKING COURSE ALREADY. Put a bunch of money into Facebook ads, and get with the 21ST century!

But … that just doesn’t feel (as if you couldn’t guess by now) very “me.” It’s also playing by those same old capitalist rules again, and honestly, isn’t it time for something better? Elizabeth Warren might be promising to “remake capitalism” as part of her 2020 election manifesto, but I am leery of Big Politics ability to affect real change (given its affiliation with Big Business).

For now, here we are, lots of little, individual, human-run businesses, just making it up as we go along. And so long as the rules for how to make it work are still being written, here are some ideas that get a vote from me (*lifted pretty much verbatim from my proposal for book #3):

-We measure the “success” of a business by the positive impact it has on others.

-We buy less “stuff” and we invest more in each other.

-We revalue feelings, ideas, and relationships as our most valuable “assets.”

-We enact a more “matriarchal” business model, by pooling and sharing our resources equally.

-We embrace rest, resourcefulness, and wanting less, as vital elements of our planetary healing process.

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… which is a very, very, long-winded of way of informing you that, going forward, The Numinous will be switching to a subscription model. I’ll still be posting select astro content and lengthy rants on Instagram. You’ll find the odd missive from a guest writer on this site. There will still be one free newsletter per month with info about upcoming events and retreats, details of any other stuff I’m promoting, and the astro mantras you love so much.

But the JUICE. The really GOOD STUFF. The writings and the teachings that reflect the contents of my heart, the ponderings of my mind, and the yearnings of my soul. These will be delivered as a monthly content drop to subscribers via my new Patreon page—which is still in the process of being set up, and which I’ll be sharing links to in the coming weeks.

So, there you have it. The full story and the real, behind-the-scenes deal. If you have any thoughts, feedback, or feelings about this post to share, I’d love to hear from you at [email protected] <3

MATERIAL GIRL MYSTICAL WORLD CHANGED ME: THAT WAS THE POINT

A lot has changed since the original publication of Material Girl, Mystical World in May 2017 … which was kind of the point.

When I began writing Material Girl, Mystical World in early 2015, I didn’t realize it would be a book about a personal transformation—a transformation that has been unfolding ever since. I was a different woman when it was commissioned, by the time I had finished writing it, and when it was finally published in May 2017. Once you stop resisting their tug, this is how transformations go, continually unfolding until life becomes unrecognizable.

When they told me the paperback would be published this fall, I questioned whether it still felt like my story (which of course it is, and always will be). I had continued to change and evolve, as the work I chronicled in the original manuscript continued to do its work on me. And world events were also reshaping the world around us in unprecedented ways—did any of us think, and act, and see anything the same these days?

Reflecting on these shifts, I asked my publisher if I could write a new conclusion for the paperback, and they agreed. The resulting essay is published below. I invite original readers to reflect on how they have continued to evolve as a result of awakening to a more numinous outlook, and for anybody new here to consider what this might mean for you.

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New York City. November 11, 2016

Two days after the 2016 US presidential election I hosted a gathering titled “Thank Goddess.” It was a launch event for fellow author Rebecca Campbell’s new book, Rise Sister Rise. When we came up with the name, we, like liberal-leaning “feminists” everywhere, were pretty certain we would also be celebrating the election of the first female president of the United States.

I had envisioned us referencing this as yet more evidence of the rise of the Divine Feminine (the subject of Rebecca’s book), as we high-fived a collective WIN for the sisterhood. Instead, forty women filed into the yoga studio on the Lower East Side with faces drained of color. A haunted silence hung over our circle. It felt important to be together, but, still barely able to process the news, nobody really knew what to say.

Rebecca and I were cohosting with our mutual friend, Madeline Giles, who ended the session with a signature Angelic Breathwork healing session. Along with the rest of the group, I lay down on my yoga mat and began to engage the stimulating three-part breath. But this time, when the tears came, there was no cathartic release. Instead, I sat up afterwards feeling disembodied and even more confused. Struggling to address the group to close, the lump in my throat was like a hot coal, my whole body reverberating with the static of our collective anxiety.

What the actual fuck was happening? And where on Earth did we go from here?

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The hardcover edition of Material Girl, Mystical World was released six months later, and in the original conclusion I wrote about all the ways in which my life and my world were transforming as a result of the tools, philosophies, and practices I’ve covered in its pages. How my periods had regulated for the first time in my life, and how I’d healed my persistent IBS (having finally addressed the emotional issues that had been gnawing at my gut for years). I also shared how I viewed myself as a “recovering fashion industry victim,” and now bought 90 percent of my clothes second hand—the ultimate “sustainable” fashion!

I also mentioned that these external changes were really just the fluff since I could see how adopting a more numinous outlook was also making me kinder, more compassionate, more giving, and less self-absorbed. How it had completely transformed my relationship with my mum. And how seeking to truly know, accept, and forgive myself—how to unconditionally love myself—meant I no longer felt the need to accumulate stuff to make me feel good—as what was beginning to feel really GREAT was the idea that, in some way, whatever I did with my days was contributing to the greater good.

And, almost three years on from that Thank Goddess event, it is clearly evident that my own healing path reflects a collective awakening of sorts. That my confronting my personal demons has been part of a larger unmasking of “evil” forces operating behind the scenes—from political corruption, to the roots of the institutionalized racism that remain embedded decades on from the civil rights movement, and the largely unchecked exploitation of the natural world. My friend, Sushma Sagar, a former Marketing Director for Kate Spade turned energy healer, once described her own healing as a process of “un-brainwashing” herself, meaning it entailed confronting whatever subconscious beliefs and associated behaviors had been keeping her locked in cycles of pain. Pain that she, like myself and so many of us, self-medicated with cocktails, fancy clothes, drama-filled relationships, and an endless quest for career status.

Would our world look any different today had we elected a female president in 2016? If anything, without the collective wake-up call/“un-brainwashing” that has accompanied the Trump presidency, it seems as though the aforementioned societal woes would have been left to fester in the darkness even longer. And, as painful and confronting as this process has proven for many, I believe it has also been part of an overall raising of consciousness that began with the new age movement of the 1960s and 1970s, and which has sped up and gone viral thanks to our twenty-first century technologies.

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The term “new age” was coined with reference to the dawning of the Age of Aquarius, a 2000-year-plus astrological era we began transitioning into globally in the middle of the last century. Moving us out of the preceding Age of Pisces, an era in which religious fear-mongering and hierarchical power structures reigned supreme, this new age heralds the rise of “Aquarian” values such as humanitarian efforts, power to the individual, freedom of information, and rebellion against the status quo.

I coined the term Now Age because, well, this new Aquarian age is happening NOW! Which also means anybody born between the 1950s and the 2050s are what I call the generational “pattern breakers” karmically tasked with ushering in this new evolutionary paradigm. Yes, that likely means you. And yes, that means that part of your purpose here on Earth is to help birth a more open-minded, less dogmatic, and overall more equally opportunistic Aquarian era.

And you thought my book was going to tell you all about what crystals to buy, and where to get the best tarot readings. Sorry! I kinda tricked you there with the hot pink cover and all the talk about “high vibes.” I have been known to refer to The Numinous as a “Trojan My Little Pony”—all rainbows and sparkles on the outside, concealing an army of freedom fighters within. As we witness the outdated systems of the Piscean Age begin to topple and fall, what will be your contribution to bringing the Now Age into being?

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In Material Girl, Mystical World, I describe the shamanic view of humankind as “a giant people patchwork, with each and every one of us a vital stitch helping keep it all together.” Well, this is when you get to weave your story into the mix. What this means is, I hope you will feel inspired by this book to begin, in earnest, the thorough and searching process of un-brainwashing yourself, and a simultaneous investigation into your truth and your path. Meaning the path of your ultimate freedom, fulfillment, and empowerment, and, as a result, the path of your dharma.

You can begin by getting to know your birth chart (using The Numinous Astro Deck if it speaks to you). Of all the tools mentioned in these pages, astrology remains my preferred method of recognizing my inherited and/or subconscious patterning, behaviors, and beliefs—all the better to rewrite the script! And of course, do the yoga, the meditation, and the green juice (yada yada), but THEN pay attention to the wider changes you will very likely find yourself feeling called to implement as a result.

I often describe the practices and healing modalities covered on The Numinous as “the missing piece in the wellness puzzle”—because, guess what? In my experience, when you clean up your diet and begin to take better care of the physical, you will automatically be asked (by the Universe, Source, your higher Self, etc.) to pay more attention to your mental, emotional, and spiritual well-being, and to make any necessary adjustments to your priorities accordingly. And I guarantee that any discomfort you experience initially will be offset by a level of fulfillment, a depth of intimacy in your relationships, and a sense of meaning and purpose for your life that you may never have known.

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Eddie Stern, my philosopher friend whom I introduce in the chapter on yoga, wrote a piece for The Numinous about the Hindu concepts of sakala, the reality we experience “with form,” and nishkala, the reality that is “without form.” In other words, our outer, quantifiable world (body, possessions, money, social media, even the Universe) and our inner, unquantifiable realms (knowledge, love, compassion, dreams, hopes, and potential). The Material and the Mystical. The here and now and . . . the numinous. “In yoga,” he wrote, “knowing who we are is the solution to all misery. For when we don’t know who we are, we are limited by the external things we measure ourselves against (sakala). We measure, we compare, and we are miserable in doing so, because we always come up short. Yoga teaches that when we truly know who we are, we are immeasurable, pure consciousness (nishkala).”

In other words, it is in seeking to know the unknowable, to connect to the truth of our numinous nature, where our unlimited potential— and our true freedom—lies. And if I could wish anything for you, me, and (why not?) for all humanity, it is for us to be free.

The paperback edition of Material Girl, Mystical World is out now with HarperOne books.

7 REASONS I’M TAKING A NUMINOUS SABBATICAL

I’m taking a Numinous sabbatical, to recharge my creative batteries—and also to review, refresh, and rethink what this platform stands for. Here are 7 reasons why …

As of 7/7/19 I’m on a Numinous sabbatical—the dictionary definition for which is: “a period of paid leave granted to a university teacher or other worker for study or travel, traditionally one year for every seven years worked.”

Okay, I’m not a university teacher … but The Numinous is a place of learning. I’m not being paid to take this break … but this time-out is partly so I can focus on creating financial stability in my life. There will be travel, and there will be study. And while this platform was created seven years ago, I don’t yet know how long this sabbatical will last. Two months minimum … and maybe (although probably not) even as long as a year.

This means I am taking a break from updating the site, posting on Instagram, sending out newsletters, and producing The Now Age podcast. It also means no weekly horoscopes, Tarotscopes, and astro mantras from us. And since (hello, eclipse season!) this is coming somewhat out of the blue, I figured I would share my reasons for this below (all of which, coincidentally, begin with the letter M):

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1. Mercury Retrograde
Because what better time to take a step back and review, rethink, and refresh what The Numinous stands for, and the content I want to use this platform to contribute. For one more mother*cking time: MERCURY RETROGRADE is not anything to fear. In an always-on, progress-obsessed society, it is an invitation into a very necessary moment of pause, to reflect, refuel, and regroup. Join me?

2. Mission Accomplished
When the idea for The Numinous lit a fire in my belly in 2011, it was because I wanted to make astrology, the Tarot, and other mystical practices more accessible to the masses. I was also pissed that people who “believed” in these ancient human technologies were routinely ridiculed and written off as deluded. So, I made it my mission to make is cool + smart #af to introduce yourself as “Aries Sun, Cancer Moon, Sag Rising.” Back then, all we had was Susan Miller and the Astro Twins. Fast forward to 2019, and the New York Times is writing articles about venture capital eyeing “big astrology” as the next boom industry. I’m like, job done: so, what next?

3. Meme Accounts
And also, a lot of the astrology content that has sprung up to feed the rampant appetite of a freshly mysicisized public, makes me die a little bit inside. Don’t get me wrong, I love a good astro meme as much as the next narcissistic human looking for a quick hit of validation or “feeling seen.” AND a lot of this content reinforces really unhelpful stereotypes (something, hands up, that this platform has also been guilty of). But what the world does not need right now is more and more lowest-common-denominator astro content. It might get the most “likes,” and for a while I got sucked into playing the numbers game (ahhh, the delicious irony that I’m “quitting” IG the week I hit 100K followers)—but it’s not doing perceptions of the practice any favors. My goal for The Numinous has evolved from wanting to help popularize astrology, to wanting to help people use it as a tool for REAL emotional, mental, and spiritual wellbeing. This is why I made The Numinous Astro Deck.

4. Making it Sustainable
I’ve never really felt “okay” about businesses (mine included) relying on unpaid interns (which I have had to at times), but I realized recently that creating and maintaining a FREE weekly content platform has been like interning for myself the past seven years. Yes, The Numinous has brought me tons of “experience” and “contacts,” which in turn have led to me getting book deals, events, retreats, and other bits and pieces of income over the years. But most of what I earn “on the side” goes back into maintaining this platform, which is just not sustainable. I want to write more books. I want to help other people write books. I want to do more consultancy + coaching. I want to volunteer for organizations and causes that I care about. I want to craft and lead more life-changing IRL experiences. And to do all of this, I need to reclaim the roughly 70% of my unpaid time and creative juice that currently goes into … The Numinous.

5. Mental Health
“Burnout” became an official “syndrome,” as recognized by the World Health Organization, on May 28 this year. Symptoms include: feelings of energy depletion or exhaustion; increased mental distance from one’s job, or feelings of negativity or cynicism related to one’s job; and reduced professional efficacy. Um, this is me, me, and me. Looking at the work-life culture that social media + the gig-economy has created, no wonder it is also us, us, and us. Spoiler alert: I’m going to be writing about this in my next book, and so my Numinous sabbatical (question: what happens when we opt-out of being always-on? Quit basing the value of ourselves and our work on follows and likes?) is also research for that.

6. My Big Mission
I recently wrote another book, Sober Curious, about how the past seven years have also been the backdrop to a total 180 in my relationship to alcohol, to the point I no longer drink or have any desire to drink. I did this by bringing a questioning, beginner’s mind to all my interactions with booze, a process I called getting “Sober Curious.” Coupled with the emotional + spiritual healing I’ve experienced from embracing all things Numinous, the result is that I no longer “need” alcohol to either numb out, or fake feeling more confident. As I write this, the term “sober curious” is snowballing into what is becoming a global trend, and when I pitched the book, I knew it would reach a wayyyy wider demographic than my first, Material Girl, Mystical World. I also hoped this would make it a vehicle for mysicisizing wayyy more people—and in doing so, help normalize the many different paths to mental, emotional + spiritual wellbeing. Which is exactly what is happening, and which is something I need and want to focus on more fully.

7. Marianne
As in, Marianne Williamson’s 2020 Presidential bid. Were you as mad as me at the media reaction to her appearance in the Miami democratic debates? Instead of reporting on any of the very intelligent points she made (not least the one about the current president not winning in 2016 on policy points, but on emotion—by harnessing FEAR for political gain), we got a good old #witchhunt, with Marianne and her work being being belittled and branded a laughing stock. UGH. My blood boiled! Over the past year, I’ve committed more and more to talking about how we can look beyond our personal healing paths to ways we can help heal the world, with my interviews for The Now Age podcast in particular. Marianne has being doing this her whole career, from creating soup kitchens for HIV patients in the 1990s, to more recently enacting mass apologies for institutionalized racism in the US.

Why is her bid another reason for my Numinous sabbatical? Because 2020 is gonna be a s*it-show of opinions and fear-mongering, and never has Marianne’s mission to activate love, compassion, and, above all, HOPE, in the face of this been more important. I want to ensure that whatever I put out there contributes to this, whether or not she lands a candidacy—and, again, I need a break from churning out endless content to feed Mark Zukerburg’s algorithm to focus on how to do this.

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So there you have it, my reasons for my Numinous sabbatical. Whether you’ve been a reader from the beginning, or are brand new, thank you for being here. I hope our work has been of benefit to you—and that you, too, are feeling ready to pay any healing and transformations you’ve experienced as a result of your own mystical explorations forward in 2020 and beyond. See you on the other side!

While we’re broke up, you can still follow me on IG @rubywarrington, and catch up all back episodes of The Now Age and Sober Curious podcasts. You can follow @sandysitron and @bessmatassa for Numinous astro insights, and @thebrandonalter for your Numinous tarotscopes fix. And you can learn astrology as a tool for personal healing and growth with The Numinous Astro Deck.

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NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: JULY 1—7

Our Numinous Weekly Horoscopes from Sandy Sitron have a reading + cosmic symbol for your sign. Read for your Sun and Rising signs to get the full picture …

Photo: Irina Iriser

Cancer or Cancer Rising
Bullseye.
Try to zero in on what really matters. All sorts of thoughts, feelings and emotions may be flying. Give yourself the truth you need to hear. If it’s difficult to access the truth, try a new approach. Whatever you do, don’t let yourself circle aimlessly. Zoom straight into the heart of what is important to you now. The result will be clarity and alignment.

Leo or Leo Rising
Holding onto a balloon and floating away.
You don’t have to work so hard. You don’t have to push yourself. Let yourself be carried. What would it feel like to stop straining and clawing? What if you could trust that your throne is secure? Did you ever learn to go with the flow? Teach yourself now. Trust yourself and find the current that can carry you toward your dreams.

Virgo or Virgo Rising
Expertly playing a piano.
Years of practice have added up. You are finding your groove. Now where will you take your craft? Often we feel was if there is so much more to learn, so much more to refine. Let go of perfection and bring your ideas, talents and skills to a larger audience. Allow yourself to feel inspired by other peoples’ input. It’s time to go public.

Libra or Libra Rising
You’re a jockey riding a racehorse.
After being pelted with wind and mud, you may feel like giving up. Instead, get into the sport of what you are doing in your career. You’re in the homestretch and the rules of the race may change before it’s finished. So keep riding and let yourself be surprised by the outcome. You can’t control everything, but you can choose a lane and stay on track.

Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Working on a Rubik’s cube.
You know how to dedicate yourself to something. Stay engaged. Keep chipping away at the issue even if you’re not sure how committed you feel. The most important thing is that you feel aligned with your values. If you do, you’ll find the stamina that you need. If you don’t, make minor adjustments.

Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Geese fly in a V-shape.
The thing to remember is that you are never alone. Start trusting that you are included. You don’t have to prove anything. Maybe it’s true that you’ve been denied or let down in the past. But right now you have a chance to start over emotionally and heal. It will take a load off your mind to trust your place in the world.

Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Sleeping in a cloud.
“A cloud” symbolizes water (emotion) that is held up in air (communication). “Sleeping” symbolically represents relaxation and restoration. This week the energy shows up in your relationship area. In relationship you need to relax so that you can find the right words to express your emotions. This communication will help you start fresh.

Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
Making a collage.
You can fit the pieces together. Take a surprising new approach as you plan your day. It’s time to change things up when it comes to your daily chores, tasks, productivity and health. Add in new and unlikely elements to your schedule so that you create a whole new vision for your life. The magic is in the details.

Pisces or Pisces Rising
Playing in the sand.
It’s time to get messy and make masterful creations. This isn’t about perfection, the water will come and wash it all away. This is about being spontaneous. Being led by fun. Being instinctive. Begin to play and be surprised by your results. Take this approach with any issue you’re having, or in any area of life.

Aries or Aries Rising
A motorboat bounces against the waves.
Speed will help you get over and around any emotional swells. You may feel rather slow and sluggish. Do something quickly to snap yourself out of it. Once you’ve remembered how spontaneous you can be, you can return to your emotions and sit with them. Be very tender and gentle with yourself.

Taurus or Taurus Rising
A hamster in a wheel.
Your mind is racing. Make sure it’s gong somewhere. You can spin in circles or you can engage mentally in a way that feels curious, inspiring and invigorating. Mindfulness is key. Meditate to practice awareness. Follow your curiosity in a way that feels engaging instead of compulsive. And most of all, connect with friends.

Gemini or Gemini Rising
Gazing out over your vast empire.
Do you feel connected with what you are building? Find creative way to assess your resources and remember your successes. They are there. You do have them. Knowing that you have them will support you mentally. Connect to nature and get grounded. When you feel grounded and resourceful your self-worth amplifies.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

WHY IS MAINSTREAM ASTROLOGY SO WHITE?

When Adama Sesay of Lilith Astrology enquired about writing for The Numinous, she also came with this question: so we asked her to share her views on why mainstream astrology is so white …

Photo: Alice Pollet

I’ve asked myself this question since I’ve started working professionally in this esoteric community. Why are there so few people of color in the mainstream new age movement? And not just in the astrological space—this is a conversation that’s being had across various modalities; most notably in Yoga. And while things are getting better, I believe we still have work to do.

After graduating college, I began working for beauty brands managing digital marketing in New York City. Having loved astrology since a young age, this affinity with all things cosmic intensified during my Saturn Return, and led me to shift gears. Wanted to get out of the city and experience the west coast, I moved to Portland, Oregon and begin working for a well-known Astrology and Tarot website. Looking back, I can see now that what felt like a career curveball was the Universe’s way of introducing me my life path. After all, I didn’t grow up thinking that astrology was something I would do professionally.

Inspired by my time working for this site, I felt a calling to continue my studies, so I enrolled in a series of astrology classes to solidify my knowledge. Fast-forward to today, I founded Lilith Astrology in January 2019.

I see astrology as a way to empower my clients. Understanding your birth chart means unlocking the keys to your life and why you were put on this earth. Based back in New York City, I work specifically with womxn as I feel that all feminine identifying individuals need whatever additional validation we can get in a society still doesn’t see us as equal to men. I also happen to be a 1st house Lilith in Leo—my self-expression ruled by the disruptive and unapologetic divine feminine archetype in the zodiac. But it was when I began to look for opportunities to contribute astrological content to media outlets and I noticed a trend—a consistent lack of diversity and representation.

Which lead me to my question: why is mainstream astrology so white?

I don’t believe the answer lies in pointing blame, or saying it’s racism or discrimination. To me, it points to a lack of awareness. Throughout my career in corporate, I noticed that managers tended to hire people they could relate to, or who they knew through external connections. Most of the time, these networks were comprised of the same ethnicity or race. Entire brand departments would therefore lean more towards one ethnicity, and, as a result, the marketing campaigns and creative they produced would also mainly feature one race.

This is nothing new in America! But, as astrology becomes more mainstream, I see a similar thing happening with what is supposed to be a spiritual and inclusive modality. A practice that helps us see beyond the external and foster an understanding of who we are at soul level. The majority of mainstream outlets (not all) feature mainly white astrologers, while the few “ethnic” verticals include astrologers of color.

As a Scorpio Sun, Mercury and Pluto, I see it as part of my mission to transform this pattern of separation and segregation, and bring visibility to the eclectic mix of astrologers that are flying under the mainstream radar. I believe that the best way to ensure the growth of diversity in astrology (and in the larger world) is through talking about this issue, creating opportunities for astrologers of color, and encouraging mindful inclusion in mainstream media outlets.

YouTube (of course) has helped me discover a plethora of diverse astrologers, practicing both Western to Vedic astrology. Some I have been particularly inspired by include, The Peace Dealer whose Lilith series was one of the inspirations for the name of my own astrology brand. True Brilliance is sheer genius in the way she incorporates mythology into her interpretations. KRSChannel is a widely followed Vedic astrologer who makes the topic easy to digest, dynamic and extremely interesting.

Adama Sesay of Lilith Astrology

My favorite though is the lovely Nadiya Shah. As a seasoned cosmic veteran, she remembers a time when it was only her and black astrologer Samuel Reynolds representing diversity at the NORWAC conference (one of the biggest meetups for professional astrologers). When we spoke, she told me that attending in 2019 as a speaker, she found it extremely refreshing to see a more diverse group than usual, comprised mostly of millennials.

She believes this is partly because younger generations have grown up with a more diverse outlook, so as more millennials and Gen Z’s discover astrology for themselves, we will naturally see an increase in diversity in the space. Nadiya told me, “The world is diverse! I believe that the more individuals who do what is true for them, the more it gives others permission to do that as well. You can’t have Astrology without the Astrologer—and so it’s important to have a diversity of voices and backgrounds represented.”

This has a lot to do with the Pluto in Scorpio generation, born November 1983 – November 1995, coming of age. We have been put on this earth to deconstruct, remove and transform the current systems and structures in our current society. With Pluto in its home sign, we are an extremely powerful group—the first generation with this placement in our charts in over 200 years! Millennials are now just coming into astrological adulthood (post-Saturn return) so now we will begin to see how this energy will manifest.

There are a couple more Pluto in Scorpio Astrologers of color that I love and also want to mention. I recently discovered Corey Randle, a.k.a. The Water Bearer’s Tea. He adds dash of sass and humor to his spiritual enlightenment and guidance that brings me so much joy. The lovely Mecca Woods also brightens up my Instagram feed with her fun-filled and playful take on Astrology.

My goal with speaking out on this issue is to raise awareness and encourage the inclusion of more astrologers of color. To challenge the mainstream media outlets to become more mindful in their discovery and inclusion of more diverse and alternative astrologers. And, not least because the practice of readers of different ethnicities, races, and expressions of gender and sexuality, will have been shaped by their often-marginalized experiences of being human—helping to create a more inclusive, and healing, astrological landscape overall.

Discover more about Adama Sesay and her work at LilithAstrology.com or follow her on Instagram @LilithAstrology

NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: JUNE 10—16

Our Numinous Weekly Horoscopes have this week’s symbol + reading for your sign from Sandy Sitron

Photo: Max Ostrozhinskiy

Gemini or Gemini Rising
A locomotive speeds along.
This moment is less about decision making and more about your energy level. If you’re feeling scattered, try to stay the course. Have you already put down railroad tracks by making key decisions? If so, it might make sense to keep chugging along. Do things that help you maintain a high level of energy so that you can push through.

Cancer or Cancer Rising
Cotton balls.
It’s time to buffer. Pack yourself in a protective cushiony material. Make your life more soft and gentle. Does that mean that you need more space? Or time alone? Do you need to surround yourself with only the most caring of friends? Ask yourself what you need and be very self-accepting. You need kindness.

Leo or Leo Rising
A ferris wheel.
You can be more analytical than usual. Organize your thoughts so that you have a vision for the view you want to see when you reach the top of the ferris wheel. Realistically understand that there will be times when you at the bottom. Reframe this normal rhythm of life so that you are confident no matter what.

Virgo or Virgo Rising 
Power tools.
This is a powerful time as you can reach new levels in your work. If you want to maximize your impact, you might need to rev up those power tools. They are louder and a little more dangerous. When you do that you’ll be playing a new game. Can you give yourself permission to be all that you can be? It’s time.

Libra or Libra Rising
A bright light.
The sun cuts through the fog. A sudden change in light can be shocking. It’s time to clear away some of the foggy confusion, or stop getting caught up in all the details. Look up. Find your guiding light. What helps you feel purposeful and invigorated? Do those things. Find a new way forward by revisiting your goals.

Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Rain on the surface of the lake.
Everything in life has a ripple effect. Journal about all of the ripples that are affecting you now. Are they ripples of emotions from childhood? Or tiny waves of energy from your environment? The more you can feel, the more you can heal, so take off your armor and be present to what is happening.

Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Wild horses galloping.
When horses run in a herd, they are synchronized. They have to stick together. If you are feeling shut down in any way, remember your important relationships. Who do you trust to lead you in the right direction? You may need more spontaneous play and fun. Find your herd and run together.

Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Sprinkling seeds in a garden.
You don’t need to reinvent the wheel. There are certain practical things you can do to prepare for your desired outcomes. Seeds need space, water, nutrients and sunlight. You have a few basic needs too. Focus on your health and organization routines and you will reap the rewards when the time is right. It’s simple.

Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
Balloons float above rooftops.
It’s time to forget about your worries and concerns. Lift off and get up above it all. You are taking things too personally and it’s holding you back from making the best contribution. What lights you up? What do you need to nerd out on? There are ideas and dreams that can get you out of your own head.

Pisces or Pisces Rising
A plane lands on a runway.
Arrive home to yourself. You have emotions that need to be tended to. You are being called upon for your innate generosity and benevolence. These are gifts that you need to share with the world. But before you can do that, you need to feel stable and emotionally secure. Come in for a landing and welcome yourself back home.

Aries or Aries Rising
Cutting down weeds.
Nurture your best ideas. You can be mentally sharp right now, which will make you a very good leader. But along the path of leadership you can encounter self-doubt. These thoughts are the weeds. They are ready to be removed. Get all of your best tools ready so that you can spend some time getting your thoughts focused.

Taurus or Taurus Rising
Skipping rope.
When you jump, you leave the ground and become airborne. In astrological terms earth is practicality and air is new ideas. It’s time to mix some new ideas up into your routines. Change it up. You will still be safe and secure. Notice if there’s anything in your life that is feeling stale and invigorate it with a slightly new approach.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: JUNE 3—9

Your Numinous Weekly Horoscopes from Sandy Sitron have a symbol + reading to help you set your intentions with the Gemini New Moon …

Photo: Paul Gilmore

Gemini or Gemini Rising
Jumping on a trampoline.
Thoughts may be jumping. You are all over the place, really. But with the right intention, you can begin to use this energy to help you leap higher than ever before. Keep it fun. This is just a pleasant backyard game, but if you get your timing right, you might leap up above the rooftops.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Cancer or Cancer Rising
A school of fish.
The normal approach is to think, discuss and then act. See if you can work more intuitively and spontaneously. Feel into your decisions this week as if you are participating in a synchronized dance. Go with the flow and you might find that you are surrounded by reassuring support from others.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Leo or Leo Rising
Construction equipment.
You have some heavy lifting to do. Instead of moving each brick with your bare hands, upgrade to some new equipment. With the help of community or technology you can accomplish much more. If you innovate, you can broaden the scope of your project. It’s time for bigger and better results.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Virgo or Virgo Rising
The tallest plants in the garden.
Reach a little higher and grow a little taller. This might be uncomfortable, but stretch as far as you possibly can. Right now you are driven to succeed. You must climb with ambition. Once you reach the height you are trying to achieve, you can reassess your approach. But for now, push.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Libra or Libra Rising
Hiking poles offer support.
Yes, it’s possible to scramble up the mountain without a pole. But why not give yourself an extra assist? The best support you can give yourself right now is to be very clear about what you value. When you stumble, your values will be there to remind you to keep going and help you stand tall.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
A big bird in a small tree.
There are times when you have to test a new environment. Maybe you’ll fit perfectly in the tree, or maybe the branch will break. Vulnerability, intimacy, self-worth and trust are all ready to be examined. Think about your history of trusting others.The moment is ripe to take a chance on uncertainty.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Sorting silverware.
Do you really feel like you fit in? Or are you a spoon surrounded by forks? The first step is to stop judging yourself. Feel at home with who you are. Then you can look around and decide if these relationships are working. Some rearranging needs to happen so that you can be comfortable in your surroundings.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
A magic wand.
It’s time to transform the mundane into the magical. Change your daily chores into fun activities. When you invigorate the way you think about your everyday actions, you’ll find that you can be content with what you have. Wave a magic wand and cast a spell that makes your responsibilities fun.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
A marching band.
You need an entire marching band to announce your presence. What are you fired up for? If you aren’t fired up, it’s time to get excited. If you are fired up, it’s time to deliver on your promise. Make it fun and creative. It’s time to stage a big entrance and receive lots of fanfare.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Pisces or Pisces Rising
A kitten mews.
Is there a part of you that needs some gentle tender care? Slow down and ask yourself if you are lonely or tired. Do you need some kind of physical or emotional sustenance? It’s okay to prioritize yourself and give yourself that care. The outside world can wait. Go within and notice what you need.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Aries or Aries Rising
A rainbow stretches across the sky.
There are a myriad of colors available. A large spectrum of possibilities. Now is the time to consider your options and widen your viewpoint. You may stumble upon a new way of thinking that helps put everything in perspective. Practice keeping an open mind and you’ll find beautiful surprises everywhere.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Taurus or Taurus Rising
A camel in the desert.
Set intentions for how you will feel secure. The one thing that is certain is that life is always changing. So security is a kind of mirage. What idea or intention will help you feel secure? Is it your self-worth? Your friendships? Your money? Your great ideas? Help yourself feel truly confident.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: MAY 27—JUNE 2

Get this week’s astro symbol + reading for your sign from resident astrologer, Sandy Sitron

Photo: Brett Jackson

Gemini or Gemini Rising
Kindling for the fire.
Yes, you can say it all, do it all and be it all. You’re moving quickly. That’s appropriate and you can continue to shine. Hurl more wood on the fire and dance like a luminous flame. My only caution is that you check in with yourself during this activated time. Nourish your soul through conscious self-inquiry. That will help you burn bright.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Cancer or Cancer Rising
Dipping doughnuts in coffee.
You may feel soggy or foggy and that’s okay. Release your attachment to any outcome and focus on the present moment. Where is the sweetness? If you can highlight some sweet sensation or thought, you’ll have everything you need. Dunk yourself into this liquid moment, and don’t worry about the future.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Leo or Leo Rising
Mirrors in the funhouse.
There’s always enough to go around. Scarcity is a distorted funhouse mirror. It’s time to examine your perception of reality and upgrade to a new way of thinking. Break the concave mirror with one swift kick, then race to the room with the infinity mirrors. Learn to see your worth magnified infinite times.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Virgo or Virgo Rising
Cryptic equations on the chalkboard.
The answer is right in front of you. There are clues around you that can help you understand how to position yourself in your career. You just need to find the right formula. Connect with a mentor who can help. Trust that your issues are solvable. The more that you study the puzzle, the more likely it is that you will unlock the answers.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Libra or Libra Rising
Research data.
This is all an experiment so collect the data objectively. The more you try to succeed the more times you will fail. So do both. Succeed and fail. Love your ability to fail with every cell of your being. It’s part of the expansion process. Try. Study the results. Try again. You are participating and progressing.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Walking under a waterfall.
A waterfall is powerful. The force of the flow could be crushing. Put yourself through the full force of your emotions. When you finally make it through to the other side, you’ll find that something has been healed and cleansed. This emotional expression will buff your hard edges and smooth things out.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
A squirrel eating nuts.
Simplify. Especially when it comes to your relationships. Squirrels seem single-minded as they search for nuts all day long. In your conversations you need to show up knowing what you want and then follow through. Other people will try to make things complicated. You need to keep it simple.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Every “i” dotted and every “t” crossed.
Let yourself off the hook. You don’t have to get everything right. The urge to improve every facet of your life is overwhelming. Instead of getting caught up in perfectionism, take a step back. If you try to fit everything into a box you’ll become overwhelmed. Be judicious and work on one thing at a time.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
An airplane pulls a sign.
Show up for yourself in a big way. What is the grand gesture you need to make for yourself? Could you write a love note to yourself in the sky, for all to see? Your inner child needs to know you care. Make this self-love moment playful and over the top. Set a new standard that reminds you how truly valued you are.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Pisces or Pisces Rising
Throw a rock into a lake.
Find a way to symbolically release your conscious and subconscious burdens. Some of them you’ve picked up recently. Others you’ve been carrying since childhood. These burdens haven’t made you more responsible, they’ve merely taken up energy. Use ritual to release them. Create a ceremony and actively shed those old burdens.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Aries or Aries Rising
A boomerang.
Every time you spin out, return to where you started. This refers to your thought patterns. The mind is active. Find a way to make use of this mentally activated time without getting overwhelmed by it. Meditate to make more mental space. When you get lost in your thoughts, return to what you know is true.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Taurus or Taurus Rising
Give the dog a bone.
This could be a time for rewards. This could be a sensual time filled with enjoyment. Give yourself a treat that you can truly relish. If you want this feeling, you’ll have to invest in it and make it happen. If you don’t make the effort to enjoy, you’ll miss the treat. Slow down and enjoy your senses of sight, smell, taste and touch.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: MAY 20—26 2019

Your Numinous Weekly Horoscopes for the first week of Gemini season are here! Sandy Sitron has the symbol + reading for your sign …

Photo: Ferenc Horvath

Gemini or Gemini Rising
Blackberry bushes.
Patience is needed. The fruit is there, just within arms reach. And you must navigate the thorns to retrieve it. If you go too fast you’ll come out empty handed and broken. So be deliberate and go luxuriously slowly. The abundance you are looking for is all around you, just be strategic and keep your eye on the prize.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Cancer or Cancer Rising
Coral reef.
You can’t chart a straight line through a coral reef. You need to swim through nooks and crannies. The path is organic and indirect. You might find a small cave you would like rest in for awhile. If you have a situation that needs resolution, focus on something else instead. The answer will come to you in an indirect way.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Leo or Leo Rising
Astronaut jumps.
Your passion for reaching higher heights is ready to be unleashed. Gravity pulls us down and keeps us grounded. That’s fine. But what if your goals had no gravitational field? What if they were limited by nothing but the atmosphere of your imagination. Tune into your passion and follow it to the moon.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Virgo or Virgo Rising
Crumbling soil between your fingers.
What are the resources you are working with? How fertile is your soil? You are about to start building. You are creating new patterns and intentions for your career. So look at the soil. Appraise your skills while you make your plan. The steps you take now are instrumental in growing your garden.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Libra or Libra Rising
Playing a wind instrument.
If you funnel your breath through a flute, you can create graceful music. The right instrument will help you transcend the mundane and reach new heights of beauty. What will allow you to do more with less? Can you make simple changes that exponentially increase your contribution? It’s time to take what you’re doing to the next level.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Buoys in a lake.
Take time out to recognize those solid relationships that simultaneously anchor and uplift you. Is there ever a limit to the gratitude that can be shown for relationships like these? Give freely in your compliments and recognitions of these people. The process will help you feel closer to yourself.

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Rocks at the base of a waterfall.
These stones are worn smooth by the force of the falling water. Your relationships are the result of all of the little moments. The words that you have exchanged. The emotions you have shared. It all counts. Assess the grooves that have appeared in your partnerships (family, romantic, friendships or otherwise). What needs to change?

Want more wisdom? Book a reading with Sandy here or follow her on Instagram.

Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Tunnel through a mountain.
In order to build a tunnel through a mountain, you must make sure that the structure you are building has integrity. Without integrity the entire mountain will collapse. This metaphor relates to your daily life. If you don’t have healthy habits and self-care built into your day, you won’t be able to achieve your goals. Take care of yourself.

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Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
Butterflies.
Our brains are trained to see the limitations of our reality. As children we need to learn certain limits so that we can survive. “The stove is hot.” “Look both ways before you cross the street.” But now you need to decide which limitations are ready to be discarded. A caterpillar is limited by gravity, until it becomes a butterfly. The same is true for you.

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Pisces or Pisces Rising
The pied piper.
It’s easy to follow along blindly. But now is the moment to be deeply honest with yourself. There are feelings that need to be acknowledged. There are practical things you can do to help this along. Spend time alone. Contemplate nature. Journal. Meditate. Talk about your feelings. Eliminate distractions. You’re ready for clarity.

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Aries or Aries Rising
Cotten candy at the county fair.
How do you cultivate hope? What are the special ingredients? There must be a little bit of fluffy optimism. But at the core of optimism is a belief. A belief is what holds this sweet and airy confection together. Spin a cloud of hopefulness around yourself. You can create it with a little sugar and a helpful positive belief.

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Taurus or Taurus Rising
A trail in the jungle.
You can make your home anywhere. Home comes from a sense of belonging and belonging starts in your own heart. Walk through the jungle in your imagination and sense the abundance of life. This feeling is real abundance that can support you anywhere you go. You belong and you have enough. Use your imagination to feel it.

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THE SPIRITUAL SIDE OF ABORTION

What is the spiritual side of abortion? Why the 2019 Alabama abortion law brings up important questions about what it really means to be “pro-life” in the now age …

“We must give every person the best chance for a quality life and a promising future.”

This is the #WTF closing line from Gov. Kay Ivey, the WOMAN who signed this week’s controversial Alabama abortion law, in her statement about the act. For me, it sums up everything that is so utterly illogical about this move—because on no level whatsoever, does the Alabama Human Life Protection Act actually promise mothers and the families who may be affected by it a “quality” life or a “promising” future.

On an entirely practical level, Alabama is the 6th poorest state in the US, with 17.2% of Alabamians living below the poverty line (the national average is 14%). Given that the people most likely to be affected by this law are also the poorest, many souls entering the world as a result of this bill, will be pre-destined for a life of poverty-induced suffering.

On a broader scale, over-population is one of the main drivers of climate change (see yesterday’s IG post on over-production / over-consumption). The future is already looking pretty grim for future generations, as we begin to experience what is only the tip of the (rapidly melting) iceberg when it comes to the devastating extreme weather events that are set to become our new normal.

And on a more numinous tip, the more unprepared, unsupported, and unwilling mothers, the more children with more generational trauma keeping them locked in cycles of suffering—and the LESS fully autonomous women, bringing our Universal, life-force, mother energy to other areas of life (something I discuss at length in Material Girl, Mystical World).

Fuck! It makes you wonder WHY Republican law-makers are so anti-abortion—the answer to which appears to be the religious roots of the pro-life lobby. Ban contraception, abortion (oh, and homosexuality while you’re at it), and more Catholic or Christian babies means more power (literally, more people taking up more land + resources) to the Church. Which brings us full circle, to a completely outdated and reactive response to an underlying xenophobic fear of our inevitable cross-cultural evolution.

I had my abortion at age 24, and I am so fucking thankful that a) being British meant I got easy access to a free procedure, no questions asked, and that b) I knew from age 5 that I didn’t want to be a mom, meaning it was not a tough decision for me to opt not to have my baby. I have thought about them sometimes, questioning whether it was selfish of me to deny another soul a life—something that came up when I did a family constellations therapy session with Marine Seleneé.

Marine believes that each and every soul, whether carried to term or not, has its own karmic role in our lineage—and that those we “abort,” as well as those who miscarry—are doing their own work. In my case, I truly believe that I am a “pattern breaker” for the woman + mother wounds that have been carried down my family line (why I knew so young that motherhood was not for me), and that my unborn child played their own role in ending this cycle of trauma.

This week’s move of Mars (conflict, courage, progress) into Cancer (motherhood, women’s issues, lineage), sets the stage for a passionate, angry, and deeply HONEST, response to this latest outrageous violation of human rights. Consider: what does it REALLY mean to be “pro-life” in the now age? How can you enact this in your day-to-day? Questions we all need to be asking ourselves on a level that goes beyond the surface, and gets into the womb of the matter.

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NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: MAY 13—19

Our Numinous Weekly Horoscopes from Sandy Sitron have this week’s astro symbol + reading for your Sun and Rising signs …

Photo: Nathan Anderson

Taurus or Taurus Rising
Petals in the wind.
It’s time to release. Survey your life and take stock of what you’re holding onto. We hold on because we know that it’s safe. We are comforted by the familiar. But right now it’s time to let go, especially when it comes to old relationship dynamics. Look for ways to break the patterns. This can be beautiful. Like a shimmer of petals on the wind.

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Gemini or Gemini Rising
Piano keys.
Beauty is the result of practice. You are developing new muscles. Find a system and follow it. Simplify your life. Go step by step. Your attention will wander. Bring it back and continue to improve. If you can manage to do this without self-judgement, you will feel as if you are playing a beautiful song. Keep your attention focused in the moment and you will feel centered.

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Cancer or Cancer Rising
Helium balloons.
It’s time to rise up above it all. Helium is lighter than the surrounding molecules, so it floats. To do this you can’t pay attention to other people’s emotional reactions. You need to focus on your own creativity and contribution. Don’t get sucked in. Just keep floating up above it all. This is easier if feel generous about your contribution. Let your feeling of generosity uplift you.

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Leo or Leo Rising
Tadpole on the brink of transformation.
What needs to change for you to feel accepted? You may yearn to feel more accepted in your family, community or career. This feeling you crave starts from a deep sense of self-acceptance. It’s time to fully embrace who you are. You are on the brink of a transformation and it begins with your sense of belonging and feeling at home in this world.

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Virgo or Virgo Rising
Horizon line.
The horizon line is both defined and undefined. Real and imaginary. You are doing mental gymnastics as you study your thought patterns and explore new mental frontiers. Our thoughts and beliefs broadly determine our life experience. Sometimes we need to change how we think so that we can change our lives. Be brave and proactive as you redefine what you believe.

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Libra or Libra Rising
A feast.
One way to increase your sense of security is to honor what you already have. Play the gratitude game. Give thanks for your resources everyday. Whatever they may be. If all you have is the air that you breathe, start there. Giving gratitude is a form of generosity. It is a way of saying, “I am full and I give back energetically.” From this place your resources will replenish.

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Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Light on a riverboat.
This symbol says that you are moving through shadows and you are in emotional territory. You will soon cross the river and arrive at dry land. The best thing that you can do is to sit with the emotions and feel them fully. When you get to dry land you can process the experience with more logic. This emotional journey is helping you become your most authentic self.

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Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
Grecian columns.
You are seeking inner stability. You are defining your inner pillars of self trust and self worth. You can do this through meditation. When in doubt, look for your resilience within. This is an spiritual and emotional connection with your strength. Meditation is a practice that helps you increase your emotional resilience. It is the columns that support your structure.

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Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
High flying hawk.
You need more perspective. You are ready for change and you need to find a new way of doing things. Before you can get into the nitty gritty of what that looks like, you need to fly high above and connect with the big picture. What do you believe? What are your values? What is your vision for your life? Connect with a sense of hope and you’ll know what to do.

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Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
A wild boar.
In this image you are rooting around in the vegetable garden, finding and devouring fresh food. You need to get grounded and connect with your wildness and your desire. From there you can put energy into achieving your dreams. You need passion to make success happen. Connect to the wild earth and find your center. When you feel grounded you can build.

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Pisces or Pisces Rising
Over the edge of a waterfall.
Let the momentum take you. There are times when you need to go with the flow. Where is the river pushing you? Let yourself rest and receive. This advice makes sense as long as you are tuned into your values. If you can make choices that are aligned with your values and at the same time go with the flow of your intuition, you will feel alignment.

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Aries or Aries Rising
A buzzing bee hive.
You need your community. This is a time of letting go and releasing control. That’s really hard to do. Remember that your actions don’t define you. There is nothing to prove. You are valuable no matter what you achieve. Let go of the struggle and your desire to be number one. This will open you up to more intimacy and a real feeling of connection and trust.

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THE NUMINOUS ASTRO DECK: OUT JUNE 4!

The Numinous Astro Deck is a brand new astrology learning tool from Ruby Warrington and Bess Matassa out June 4 2019. Pre-order today to receive a FREE sample astro lesson!

The Numinous Astro Deck by Ruby Warrington and Bess Matassa

When I launched The Numinous back in 2012, it was because I wanted to build a bridge between the mystical and the mainstream. On a deeper level (not that I knew it at the time), parts of my soul were in need of deep DEEP healing, and the world of astrology, tarot, psychics, and Earth medicine, spoke to these tender, conflicted places, in a way that no therapist had been able to touch. Looking back, I can see that I created this platform because I needed it so badly myself.

Which is the exact same reason I created THE NUMINOUS ASTRO DECK!

Out June 4 2019, the deck follows my previous books, Material Girl, Mystical World, and Sober Curious (where you can read about that healing journey I just mentioned), and is a fully-illustrated 45-card deck designed to help anybody learn the language of astrology. A companion book by myself and Bess Matassa explains how to use the deck, both for birth chart interpretation, and as an oracle for divination.

The Numinous Astro Deck

Astrology was my gateway drug into the numinous realms. A cosmic code that helped to explain so much about myself and my life, me wanting to read and learn about astrology in a way that made it all feel more relevant was the original inspiration for this site.

Over the past eight years, I have studied with many different astrological mentors, read a ton of books, and consumed reams of astro content online. And now, I have created a visual learning tool to help bring it all to life.

Each card in The Numinous Astro Deck features a custom illustration by incredible Prince Láuder, with key-word prompts to tap you quickly into the energy of each sign, planet, house, and aspect making up the matrix of the zodiac.

The Moon card

In the companion book, Bess and I guide you through how to read your own chart—so that, for example, when you know you have Venus in Gemini in the 5th House, you can pull the relevant cards to study this placement. Add in a Venus-Sun conjunction, and what looks like a bunch of mathematical lines and symbols in your chart, becomes a beautiful visual mood-board for you to absorb.

And there is even MORE!

To coincide with the launch of the deck, Bess and I are also creating The Numinous Astrology School (!!!)—which will be a super-affordable option for diving into your ongoing study of astrology, and becoming fluent in this ancient, healing language.

Whether you’ve been reading since the beginning or are new to all things Numinous, I KNOW you are gonna love these new offerings! Drop me a DM either @the_numinous or @rubywarrington on IG if you have any feedback or Qs.

PLUS!!! Pre-order the deck today from Amazon or Barnes & Noble and enter your order details HERE to receive a FREE sample lesson along with the deck on June 4—and keep following on Instagram and subscribe to our newsletter to be the first to hear when The Numinous Astrology School officially open for enrollment.

NUMINOUS WEEKLY HOROSCOPES: MAY 5—12

Check our Numinous Weekly Horoscopes from Sandy Sitron for this week’s astro symbol for your sign, following the refresh of the Taurus New Moon …

Photo: Boris Misevic

Taurus or Taurus Rising
A coral reef.
There is a wide variety of experiences that you can have. The world is abundant with many types of species and habitats. Try on different attitudes. Examine your expectations for yourself. Some of them are outdated. You may be able to explore new ecosystems and shake things up. The past does not determine the future. If you’ve been waiting to begin, the time is now.

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Gemini or Gemini Rising
Hypnotic music.
Go on an inward journey. Your dreams and your intuition have special messages. Pay more attention to your inner truth than you do to the nightly news. You have the wisdom inside of you. Sometimes it’s confusing to tell which voice is intuition and which is fear. Listen closely and learn to determine the difference. You are ready to learn more about your own inner truth.

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Cancer or Cancer Rising
A game of pool.
It’s good to assess all of the possible moves, this is a game of strategy. What strategy would help you win right now? Get a higher perspective. Think bigger than you ever have. You might not see all of the details, but you can muster up the courage to think you might win. Connect with other people and ask them to help you find a new way of looking at the situation.

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Leo or Leo Rising
Caterpillar.
Keep scooting along and eventually you will transform. Your job is not to understand when or how. The technicalities might even frighten you. Instead, follow your instincts. Take the many steps you need to take. Don’t question who you are because your essence is not dictated by your outside appearance. When it comes to your career you are about to become a butterfly.

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Virgo or Virgo Rising
Pasta shapes.
You have lots of options. If you are feeling a little bored, it’s time to change it up. But you don’t necessarily need to change the whole dinner. Just choose a new shape of pasta. Meaning, don’t feel like you need to start from scratch. Reexamine your motivations and values and discover if there’s a way to change the attitude with which you are approaching difficult issues.

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Libra or Libra Rising
Floating in a raft.
You might feel like you are out to sea, but you are perfectly safe. Instead of thinking about how unstable the raft is, focus on wonderful it is to have something to hold onto. You have what you need. The only thing missing is self trust. Dig deeper into your personal reserves and connect with your inner security. You just need confidence and then you can tackle any obstacle.

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Scorpio or Scorpio Rising
Flying squirrel.
There’s a new way to navigate challenging relationships. Before now you’ve been walking and jumping. But now you are learning how to fly. Take it seriously. It’s not easy to pivot to a whole new modality. You need to learn how to hold your ground and communicate effectively. You might need to discover compromise. Balance is your goal.

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Sagittarius or Sagittarius Rising
An antique broom.
Your daily routines, habits and schedule could use a refresh. You don’t have time to play small or be slightly disorganized. You need to clean up. Don’t start by assessing. Just jump in and start working. This is how you’ll gain momentum. And once you get into the flow, you’ll start to feel like your mind is being cleared by the work you are doing. Take charge.

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Capricorn or Capricorn Rising
Surprising fireworks.
You should surprise yourself with your own creativity. Give yourself opportunities for spontaneity and self-expression. See if you can get into the zone. Whatever you create will illuminate a new path. Playfulness and generosity are good words to live by this week. Usually, it’s easy to go for days without something exciting happening, but not now. Set off some fireworks.

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Aquarius or Aquarius Rising
Feather falling.
Feathers are cozy and insulating. Change your perspective so that you can bring more of this energy into your life. It’s okay to retreat. You may need to make a warm nest and settle in. Notice what comes up when you take a step back. What subtle feelings are ready to be released? This is your chance to connect with yourself in a new way. Make a home for yourself.

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Pisces or Pisces Rising
Light at the end of the tunnel.
A new path forward is illuminated. Don’t take it for granted and don’t ignore it. You are ready for a mindset shift. Go look for new information. If you find an insight that strikes you, hold on to it. Memorize it. The ideas that you have now will have a huge impact on your future direction. Be open to change and break up the monotony of outdated ways of thinking.

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Aries or Aries Rising
A private garden.
Help yourself feel centered and stable by giving yourself a little privacy. Take time to feel grounded. Slow down just a little bit. Your breath can be wonderful tool to help you connect with your body and the present moment. You will build upon this feeling of security in the future, but begin by slowing down. That will help you feel connected with your internal resources.

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