THE SPIRITUAL SIDE OF ABORTION

What is the spiritual side of abortion? Why the 2019 Alabama abortion law brings up important questions about what it really means to be “pro-life” in the now age …

Alabama abortion 2019 Ruby Warrington The Numinous

“We must give every person the best chance for a quality life and a promising future.”

This is the #WTF closing line from Gov. Kay Ivey, the WOMAN who signed this week’s controversial Alabama abortion law, in her statement about the act. For me, it sums up everything that is so utterly illogical about this move—because on no level whatsoever, does the Alabama Human Life Protection Act actually promise mothers and the families who may be affected by it a “quality” life or a “promising” future.

On an entirely practical level, Alabama is the 6th poorest state in the US, with 17.2% of Alabamians living below the poverty line (the national average is 14%). Given that the people most likely to be affected by this law are also the poorest, many souls entering the world as a result of this bill, will be pre-destined for a life of poverty-induced suffering.

On a broader scale, over-population is one of the main drivers of climate change (see yesterday’s IG post on over-production / over-consumption). The future is already looking pretty grim for future generations, as we begin to experience what is only the tip of the (rapidly melting) iceberg when it comes to the devastating extreme weather events that are set to become our new normal.

And on a more numinous tip, the more unprepared, unsupported, and unwilling mothers, the more children with more generational trauma keeping them locked in cycles of suffering—and the LESS fully autonomous women, bringing our Universal, life-force, mother energy to other areas of life (something I discuss at length in Material Girl, Mystical World).

Fuck! It makes you wonder WHY Republican law-makers are so anti-abortion—the answer to which appears to be the religious roots of the pro-life lobby. Ban contraception, abortion (oh, and homosexuality while you’re at it), and more Catholic or Christian babies means more power (literally, more people taking up more land + resources) to the Church. Which brings us full circle, to a completely outdated and reactive response to an underlying xenophobic fear of our inevitable cross-cultural evolution.

I had my abortion at age 24, and I am so fucking thankful that a) being British meant I got easy access to a free procedure, no questions asked, and that b) I knew from age 5 that I didn’t want to be a mom, meaning it was not a tough decision for me to opt not to have my baby. I have thought about them sometimes, questioning whether it was selfish of me to deny another soul a life—something that came up when I did a family constellations therapy session with Marine Seleneé.

Marine believes that each and every soul, whether carried to term or not, has its own karmic role in our lineage—and that those we “abort,” as well as those who miscarry—are doing their own work. In my case, I truly believe that I am a “pattern breaker” for the woman + mother wounds that have been carried down my family line (why I knew so young that motherhood was not for me), and that my unborn child played their own role in ending this cycle of trauma.

This week’s move of Mars (conflict, courage, progress) into Cancer (motherhood, women’s issues, lineage), sets the stage for a passionate, angry, and deeply HONEST, response to this latest outrageous violation of human rights. Consider: what does it REALLY mean to be “pro-life” in the now age? How can you enact this in your day-to-day? Questions we all need to be asking ourselves on a level that goes beyond the surface, and gets into the womb of the matter.

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THE 2019 TAURUS NEW MOON WANTS YOU TO GET PRESENT

The 2019 Taurus New Moon is an invitation to accept exactly who, and where, you are, and to give your body exactly what it needs, says Sandy Sitron …

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New Moon // May 4 2019 // 6:47 pm ET // 14 degrees Taurus

A frog sits motionless. A tiny glistening teacher, poised in the shadows. It moves only slightly, to catch a wandering fly. And then it returns to froggy meditation. Settled and grounded. Present and alert. Waiting without being stifled by a conscious sense of time.

This amphibious zen master holds the message of the 2019 Taurus New Moon: Be present and connect with the abundance that is all around you.

On Saturday May 4th we have a New Moon at 14 degrees Taurus. When the Sun and the Moon line up in the same sign, it represents a cosmic new beginning. This is a chance to set intentions — on a New Moon the soil is very fertile so your intentions can take root and bloom brightly.

The 2019 New Moon in Taurus sets up perfect conditions for you to begin to get settled and present in your body. To be with yourself and love yourself and from that stable center connect with the abundance that is inherent in nature. Instead of seeing the glass as half empty, see the glass morph into a wellspring of continuous potential and life force.

Taurus is the second sign of the zodiac, representing the physical body, the container that houses the effervescent spark of life. Placing your attention on the subtle sensations that you feel in your body can help you be more gracious with yourself. Feel the sensation of your socks against your toes. Stretch and breathe deeply. Drink in the sight of a flowering tree. Listen to the spontaneous rhythms of your environment.

The call to action is to create space within yourself to be with yourself. Taurus is the least judgmental of the Earth signs.

It wants you to simply revel in yourself.

Since Taurus rules the body and the senses, start with your physical sensations by accepting your body. Accept what you have built for yourself. Accept your current state of being, whatever it is. From this place of acceptance you can recharge both spiritually and realistically.

Taurus holds stabilizing and receptive energy which says, “You don’t have to do or go or push, you just have to be.” It is from this slow place of simply being that you create the space to receive abundance. There is a balance of action and receiving in nature. When you can create this balance within yourself you activate true pleasure.”

So much of our lives are spent striving. Responsibilities in the world ask you to leave yourself and attend to things that are out there. But that energy will get you nowhere right now. If you try to reach too far out of yourself, you will topple like an overgrown tomato plant! When we are scattered and ungrounded we can’t get much done.

That doesn’t mean that you can’t still have goals. In fact, with this New Moon making a supportive trine to goal oriented Saturn, the wisdom is that the more that you embody your current state of being, the stronger the foundation for your future development. You can get closer to who you want to be by accepting who you are now.

This message is repeated everywhere in nature, but almost nowhere in society. So you will have proactively prioritize self-acceptance. Begin to …

Ask for your energy back.

Ask to become reacquainted with yourself.

Slow down and be gentle with this body that you are now.

Caress this body that you have, attentively.

Be with yourself in a new way.

Meet yourself where you are.

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2019 Taurus New Moon trine Saturn
A beanstalk.

Grounded and still climbing. How high can the beanstalk climb? Does it ever feel as if it’s gone too far? Does it ever have a build up of resistance and start procrastinating or self-sabotaging? No. And neither will you. From your secure and stable foundation, you are being assisted. You can climb without fear that you are not enough. Instead, just continue to build upon what you’ve already done. Rather than judging yourself, focus on your dreams for the future. Be grateful for what you have and don’t look down. Just keep going step by step. It can be so simple.

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2019 Taurus New Moon sextile Neptune
Glittery confetti.

There is a chance to live in a more magical world. A place in which you’re the honored guest at the surprise party of your dreams. This supportive aspect is a subtle reminder that it can be easy to interrupt monotony. Imagination and intuition are your avenues to deeper enjoyment of your life, and to finding a whole new world in your everyday reality.

NUMINOUS TAROTSCOPES: MAY 2019

With her Numinous Tarotscopes for May 2019, Bess Matassa has a personalized audio reading for each sign …

Spring Tarotscopes The Numinous Prince Lauder
Illustration: Price Lauder

MAY CARD FOR THE COLLECTIVE: 4 of Pentacles Rx

The symbolic “ski lodge” of the Tarot, 4 of Pentacles energy asks us to hunker down with the resources on hand, sealing up energetic leaks and finding sanctuary inside solid boundaries.

Which relationships, projects, and emotional patterns have left you feeling out in the cold? What would feel warmer, more magnetic, and more fitting of the fiercely resilient being you were born to be? May 2019 brings a month for turning towards what truly nourishes us.

Ruled by Capricorn, this card comes through during an astrological season when we are being beckoned towards greater authority over our lives overall, as we divine what is truly essential for our evolution. Try to see each moment as an opportunity to “seal the deal,” literally moving closer to what feels best in your bones.

Read on for the card, mantra, and cosmic audio reading for your sign …

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TAURUS OR TAURUS RISING: Knight of Wands Rx
“A shake of the hips shakes off shame.”

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GEMINI OR GEMINI RISING: High Priestess Rx
“Shutting off the static tunes me in.”

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CANCER OR CANCER RISING: 2 of Cups Rx
“My softness is my human right.”

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LEO OR LEO RISING: 10 of Cups
“I am ready and willing to get closer to what’s here.”

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VIRGO OR VIRGO RISING: The Emperor Rx
“I am a vital part of my own natural process.”

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LIBRA OR LIBRA RISING: Page of Swords
“I wield my clarity with curiosity.”

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SCORPIO OR SCORPIO RISING: Page of Cups Rx
“What may seem silly is a source of strength.”

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SAGITTARIUS OR SAGITTARIUS RISING: 5 of Cups Rx
“Syncing up with my instincts uncovers what’s vital.”

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CAPRICORN OR CAPRICORN RISING: Death Rx
“Sloughing off old skin can be a sweet sensation.”

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AQUARIUS OR AQUARIUS RISING: 5 of Pentacles Rx
“Inside the feeling of emptiness is the fullness I crave.”

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PISCES OR PISCES RISING: King of Pentacles Rx
“The person I’m becoming is already here.”

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ARIES OR ARIES RISING: Judgment Rx
“Letting life move through me is a brand new way to be.”

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Learn more about Bess and her work, book a reading, and check out all her personalized Astro + Tarot offerings HERE.

TAURUS SEASON 2019: YOU ARE ENOUGH

Taurus Season 2019 brings transits that remind us to trust that we are enough—with nothing to prove, and a potent innate power, says Bess Matassa …

flower crown Taurus Season 2019 Bess Matassa The Numinous
Photo: Jakob Owens

Taurus Season 2019 is vivid and alive, ready and willing to receive our lusts and longings. A time for letting the messy, beautiful range of life possess and work through us, Taurus Season 2019 reminds us that when we say “yes” to our status as part of these natural cycles, we can find radiance by moving to the rhythm of what simply is.

The season opens with Venus’ shift into Aries, and a one-two retrograde hit of Pluto and Saturn in Capricorn. Later in the season, Mercury and Venus shift into Taurus, while Mars enters Cancer, bringing questions of self protection to the fore. And, as the season closes with a fat Full Moon in Scorpio, we’re asked to hold fast to the gemstones inside of ourselves without gripping, noticing any place where we feel lack and flooding it with the lubrication of a lush, jungle cat kind of love …

Listen to the full Taurus Season 2019 report from Numi resident astrologers Bess + Sandy HERE and read on for more on the 4 key astro events of the coming weeks …

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Sun in Taurus (4.20-5.21)

Taurus energy asks us to come ever closer to the cusp of what just feels good, resting on the soft petals and sipping the sweet nectar of deservedness without wondering when the honeysuckle might end. Taurus Season 2019 amplifies this pleasure dilation. Where do you think we have to prove something in order to be served? What if you simply had to open your lips and palms and say “thank you” without wondering how you’d earned it? In the weeks to come, simply lie back into whatever feels like a bed of roses, and lap up the cream.

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Pluto Rx in Capricorn (4.24-10.2) + Saturn Rx in Capricorn (4.29-9.18) conjunct the Moon’s South Node

These two epic retrograde cycles carry us through to the “death” energy of the Scorpionic fall, and ask us to investigate where we place authority and who is really calling the shots and pulling the strings. Where do the “shoulds” in your life come from? What patterns feel like they’re “possessing” you? Take this time to notice the subtle polarities in your power dynamics. Give and take. Full and empty. What does your own power feel like when it’s simply coursing through your veins but doesn’t need a target? It’s a moment for recalibrating the controls and rediscovering a potency that ignites us from the inside out.

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Venus in Aries (4.20-5.15) + Venus in Taurus (5.15-6.8)

Venus in Aries brings an opportunity to turn over fresh soil on old romantic patterns. An invitation to move towards objects of desire with no strategy, this transit asks us to simply go for it! Like a just born baby animal, trust you will be perceived as all fluff and frolic. Learn to trust in carnal signals and, after Venus moves into Taurus, to go after what your body desires without shame. Harness this transit to quiet the storylines and to navigate your romantic life by touch, taste, and smell.

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Mars in Cancer (5.15-7.1)

Mars in Cancer harbors its hurts and healing inside a tightly packed shell, while fiercely defending what it loves. This transit is an invitation for us all to slip into our emotion ocean and examine what we can’t let go of. What feelings, memories, and entanglements we would defend with our very lives. There’s no need to try and validate these patterns of protection. Rather, we can take this time to see our defenses as gateways to a deeper understanding of what we truly value. Whatever you’re braving your body against is the secret diary key to what brings you most fully alive.

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Learn more about Bess and her work and check out all her personalized Astro + Tarot offerings HERE.

THE APRIL 19 LIBRA FULL MOON WANTS YOU TO BLOOM BIG

The second Libra Full Moon of 2019 is sweet and thorny, inviting us to set a boundary and go big, says Sandy Sitron …

April 19 2019 Libra Full Moon The Numinous Sandy Sitron Rose
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Full Moon // April 19, 2019 // 7:12 am EDT // 29 degrees Libra

Rose bushes tantalize with sweet smells and bright colors. Underneath the surface are an army of bloodthirsty thorns.

Visualize this lunation as if it represents the diverse ecosystem of a rose bush in bloom. Many pathways available, many roses to be smelled, many insects, and small animals to encounter. There’s a headiness as the perfume intoxicates, and a pain that lingers when you are pricked. You can have the best time revealing in the beauty or you can get stuck in the thorns.

On Friday April 19th there is the second Libra Full Moon of 2019. This one is asking us to get it right. There’s not much time to waste. It’s time to spark the flame of your desire, go for it, and bloom big! That’s what you’ve been working on this Aries season, even though part of the time the process was foggy, slippery, and subconscious.

And this fiery evolution of the self has been punctuated by the need to be clear, communicative and reach toward another person in diplomatic action. You’ve been asked to set boundaries that help you be more of yourself, alone and in partnership. That’s the thorny truth of what this pair of Libra Full Moons are asking you to do.

The rose is the perfect metaphor because it is peaceful and beautiful, like the Libra archetype. But it is also clear about its boundaries, the way both Libra and Aries must be to create truly balanced partnership. The rose is also the symbol for the open heart, and to be truly open-hearted you must have pointy thorns to defend yourself. That saves you energy and makes openness safe and sustainable.

The overall message of this Full Moon is to work on your self awareness so that you can communicate and enjoy both individuality and balanced partnership.

I’ll be honest, the delivery of this message is not super gentle. This Full Moon might try your patience. It might ask you to find a new path through the thorny brush. You might get some scratches. But it’s all worth it if it helps you practice self-awareness.

During this lunation there is a lot of pressure. At its best, this pressure will ask you to change. The way to handle it is to be consciously open to a mental, spiritual, and even physical upgrade. Ask for a fresh perspective. As the Sun transits close to Uranus, this upgrade might come through sometime next week.

If you are subconsciously afraid and not truly open to change, you will just feel the pressure of the grand cross that’s formed between the Nodal axis, Pluto, Saturn, the Sun, and the Moon. That pressure invites regression to old behaviors that don’t serve you anymore. It might feel majorly limiting and frustrating.

Being open to change is a state of mind.

At this time, any old patterns will catch you up in the briar patch of thorns. You need new perspective and change is supported. Meanwhile, true expansion is likely with a supportive assist by Jupiter. Jupiter is your cheerleader, reminding you that …

-You can find a new way of saying yes to who you are and what you need.

-You are ripe to open up to another person and communicate your truth.

-The old way is ending and the structure for a new way is being created.

Revel in the fact that life in the rose bush is far from boring. You are under pressure, and it might hurt a little, but the chance to blossom and show your truth has never been so vibrant!

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Moon sextile Jupiter
A graceful willow.
The willow goes with the flow. There is no breakage because there is no tension. So the branches flourish and grow lush The flexibility results in strength. You have access to support without trying. There is friction and tension at this Full Moon to be certain. But remember that sometimes you get further by going with the flow instead of hustling. Look around to see where you want to reap rewards with less effort.

Moon opposite Uranus
Lightning bug.
Keep your eyes peeled for surprising flashes of illumination. You don’t need to know where it’s going to come from. And it would be impossible to anticipate. But if you look for it, you won’t miss it. The brilliant light can show you a new path to follow.

Moon square Pluto, Saturn and North Node
Putting an irrigation system in place.
You need to find a new way forward and you will need to work to create it. Without ingenious new solutions, you will dry up. you might find buried root systems that block your path and the task might take months longer than expected. but keep trying to remove the old obstacles and welcome a new way to nurture yourself and others. You can figure this out.

7 SPIRITUAL TEACHINGS OF MY NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE

What you really get from a near death experience is a numinous new perspective on life, the Universe, and everything, says Worthy Stokes  …

Worthy Stokes The Numinous Near Death experience meditation teacher

The last thing I remember before leaving my body was the U2 song playing on my iPod shuffle: It’s A Beautiful Day. I was out for a morning jog wearing headphones and stopped at a crosswalk to wait for the signal to change. When it turned green, I turned up the volume and raced straight into Death.

A van had run a stoplight, and at the very moment it crashed into me, the world disappeared. Instead of memories of my skull breaking against pavement, I remember only that song and an image of wide, open sky. Thus, U2 serenaded my departure from this life; the ensuing brain trauma erasing everything except for Bono’s voice. So, when I tell the story of my Near Death Experience (NDE), I always think of him.

Five years have passed since my harrowing return to my body, during which time the nuts and bolts of universal intelligence have emerged in waves and codes. During this time, seven spiritual teachings have emerged — to inform my life and work here on Earth 

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1. Consciousness is not religious, humans are. When I dropped into the vastness of the primordial, cosmic soup, I came face-to-face with infinity. I was lucid in my perception of an elegant, fluid order, and, at the same time, the experience felt wholly incomprehensible to my human brain. I felt neither shock, or distress. I floated about leisurely, as I noticed, rather abruptly, that religion simply does not exist beyond the human mind.

Having previously “believed” in Buddhism, I came back into my body with a transfigured cosmology for which I have no translation. My faith rests instead in a mysterious beauty that remains unencumbered by mortal bias, dogmas, or doctrines—all of which, I see now, are highly destructive to human beings. Religion perpetuates guilt. Consciousness activates possibility.

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2. Death is a choose-your-own-adventure experience. If you like Jesus, he’ll be there. If you love practicing meditation, maybe you’ll see a monk. If you are tired of patriarchy, perhaps a fierce Goddess or tree spirit will greet you. For atheists or stoics who think this is nonsense, the journey into Death is destined to unfold in a way that is relaxing, uneventful, and not at all weird. Each of us naturally transitions from one state of consciousness to another without the slightest bit of pain—which brings me to the idea of Hell, which isn’t real, so everyone can relax. There is no darkness in that final exit, and if there is, it’s probably because you wanted it that way.

3. We are all as connected as we are separate. There is an individuated blueprint in each of us describing multiple portals to other dimensions, but how this system mechanically functions is beyond us. Invisible points of contact, layers of free will, shifting realities, and elements of destiny all move and meld in ways that are too complex for us to ever name. In the popular TV series about NDEs (OA), there are gestures coupled with movements to be found in the afterlife, which combine in an eerie combination of breath and choreography.

This hints at an interlocking system we all share and must sort out together, because each of us carries a vital piece of the puzzle that doesn’t fully work until connected with others. In other words, the success of our collective matrix depends on its parts functioning as coherent, interactive particles engaging consciously. So yes, your healing journey is valuable to all of us. My NDE showed me that we are linked, and we are separate. We have shared paths, and we engage singularity. We are interdependent, and we are alone.

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4. Some things do not heal. Consciousness is not just for manifesting a Ferrari or a mate or healing a primal wound; it is not a spoon we can learn to bend with our minds. We do not have as much control as we wish we did, and we do not get to know why some things heal and others don’t. Asking why X still hurts (despite having done all the Work), as so many of us like to do, leads nowhere. Let’s ask each other instead, “What happened? What can happen next?”

Our job here is to hold each other’s fragility, alongside qualities of strength, power, purpose, and possibility. Even after having seen in my NDE how vast we all are, and how very little control we have in our lives, I returned with a belief that wanting to heal something was enough. Over time, I learned I was wrong. I learned instead to make peace with hundreds of things I cannot fix. Now, I pay close attention to what IS possible here, in the realm of the living. I find enormous solace in my understanding that on the other side, there is no pain.

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5. Transformation is your birthright. We have the right to change what we do not like, need, or love, in this wakeful, transient life. Further, we are spiritually and neurologically wired for transformation. I’m not saying transformation is easy, and I am also not saying it’s going to be an affordable, realistic, or linear process. Nor is it a test or an experiment. There are no grades, or getting it “right” or “wrong.” Showing up and exploring is what counts. Dreaming, breathing, building, evaluating, noticing, and repeating what works. Getting into your carpe diem flow while motivated by visions of awesomeness is a very good place to start. Find mentors, make revisions, and don’t be afraid to color outside the lines.

Photo: Ameen Fahmy

6. We need our people guides more than our spirit guides. We are each like turtles bringing houses of consciousness from oceans of possibility to this shared, changeable world. Like turtles, we carry pieces of our primordial homes on our backs, which means we are all, always, “at home.” From this space, we can choose to be fiercely, tenderly present for each other, right here and right now. Yet I see countless seekers hitching rides on decorated spaceships to visit fancy vortices in search of “answers” and healing. The irony is we already boarded the most cosmic spaceships of all, our bodies, and we traveled a very long way to reach this life. Meeting each other in the flesh is a fantastic, holy, and healing event, in and of itself.

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7. Being human is the ultimate spiritual path. As spiritual beings, we are elements of unified consciousness, and as physical beings, we are connected by way of our neurobiology. Being human and being here in this life IS the ultimate path; regular meditation or devotional practices that nourish our relationships with each other are simply ways to maintain our connection with the Divine.

The task at hand, truly, is to care for each other in the physical domain, as creatures who age, break, triumph, and fail, through moments of tragedy and ecstatic, heart shattering joy. There is no need to look beyond this reality. Presence is what we are, and life inside of these beautiful days IS the messy, sacred experience we came here for. When we look outside of ourselves for truthful meaning, we shut down access to the very miracles we seek.

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Worthy Stokes is a healer, seer, and sage. Learn more about her work at thisworthylife.com, get her free meditations on Insight Timer, and follow her on Instagram @thisworthylife. Get on her mystical frequency with code NUMINOUS and a 20% discount: HeartMind: A 10 Day Meditation Journey for Sensitives and Survivors on the Path of Spiritual Awakening

THE 2019 ARIES NEW MOON WANTS YOU TO WAKE UP

The 2019 Aries New Moon is turning the ignition on our most inspired intentions. Use it to spark up a whole new phase, says Sandy Sitron …

2019 Aries New Moon Sandy Sitron The Numinous
Photo: Anderson Rian

New Moon // April 05 2019 // 4:52 am EDT // 15 degrees Aries

You can’t see this New Moon, but it will be your vehicle. It is as if you are turning the key in the ignition for the first time.

Now you get to hear the engine turn over.

You get a spark.

What do you want to spark in your life?

What are you ready to turn over?

What part of you is coming to life?

On Friday April 5th at 4:52 am EDT, we have a New Moon in Aries. At any New Moon, the Moon has retreated into the shadows. It doesn’t reflect light outwardly. This is a quiet time to retreat within and reflect on your internal process.

The Sun and Moon are lined up in the first sign of the zodiac. Aries is the sign of action and being. Aries energy is not aligned with thinking, reflecting, and analyzing. Aries wants to drive, to spark, to act, to express. Creativity and spontaneity are what feel good and work best during Aries season. 

So, at this is a quiet and inwardly reflective New Moon, how can you take all this promise of inspired action, and plant it like a seed within yourself?

This is the time to set intentions for how you want to be, act, and do. It is truly a fresh start. Begin this process in your imagination. Write down your new goals, commitments, and dreams and then give them to the Moon. How do you want to live? 

With the 2019 Aries New Moon making a square to Saturn, notice how you might tend to limit these dreams. Limiting your goals to what is “practical” is not going to help you ignite! A fire doesn’t analyze and plan as it burns. It simply consumes the material it has access to and dances as wildly as it can.

The energy of this New Moon feels a little irresponsible. But the square to Saturn says tells us that restraint is necessary. Integrate this contradiction is a way that works for you.

One way could be to set intentions that are based in the concepts of Love and Action. Let these tenets guide you, and you will be doing the best you can for yourself and others.

Because this is a fiery and action-oriented New Moon, it’s important to remember that the seeds of our intentions cannot only be planted in the mind. The mind is too dry to germinate to new life. Your intentions must take root in your heart. You have to feel your intentions, and hold them, and imagine yourself living them.

Warm them up and incubate them in the fires of this 2019 Aries New Moon.

Set intentions for how you want to live. 

Over the past weeks, you’ve had so much time to drift and dream. At times, with the Sun, Mercury, and Neptune in Pisces, you may even have felt as if you were trapped in a murky, muddy puddle, unable to truly move forward.

It could still feel like you are suspended in an extended sleep, but look more closely. Something is stirring. Like a baby waking up, this awakening may happen slowly. A shift of body weight. A stretch and a sneeze. Finally, once consciousness has fully arrived, a scream!

There you are, stretching, slowly awakening to this new beginning. Allow your own wild yell be a way to you remind yourself you are alive.

And now that you are awake, out all the energy you’ve cultivated during your slumber into getting this new phase going. Power up your being with intentions rooted in Love and Action. Turn the key in the ignition, then put your foot on the gas.

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New Moon square Saturn

Dry crunchy cereal. The kind that cuts the roof of your mouth, just enough to be uncomfortable. But you keep eating anyway. You need to do something healthy for yourself. You need to figure out what is really going to work for your body, for your community and for your world.

You may be a little uncomfortable in the process. But that doesn’t mean you should avoid the task at hand. Find sweetness where you can, and keep chewing. Keep doing the work you need to do. Eventually you’ll see the positive changes take shape. And it will all be worth it.

NUMINOUS TAROTSCOPES: APRIL 2019

Here comes spring! And it’s a time to practice the art of receiving, says Bess Matassa, who also has a personal audio Tarot reading for April 2019 for each sign …

Spring Tarotscopes The Numinous Prince Lauder

April 2019 card for the collective: The Empress

As we transition from Aries to Taurus energy in April 2019, The Empress asks us to move beyond our scarcity mentality. Ruled by Venus, The Empress presides over the holy heaven-on-earth trinity of sex, beauty, and money. She is the QUEEN OF RECEIVING, and this month she is asking us to smoke out any old stories about our lack of worth, so we can reap all the juicy fruits that are ripe for the plucking.

In the weeks to come, let The Empress remind you that pursuing what you love is the fastest way to magnetize more of this into your life. What if it didn’t have to be any harder than that? Once there, try not to get caught up in the self-sabotaging cycle of immediately wondering how long it will last. Imagine if, by simply saying “yes” to only what feels good, this opulence continued to propagate organically in your world.

Read on for the card, mantra, and cosmic audio reading for your sign …

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ARIES or ARIES RISING: 4 of Cups
“My feelings are a force that create my foundations.”

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TAURUS or TAURUS RISING: The Wheel of Fortune
“Letting myself grow wider is the way towards wisdom.”

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GEMINI or GEMINI RISING: Page of Wands
“Getting back to basics makes me feel bedazzled.”

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CANCER or CANCER RISING: 2 of Pentacles
“Liberation comes from not carrying it all.”

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LEO or LEO RISING: 10 of Pentacles
“I pledge allegiance to the light that never goes out.”

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VIRGO or VIRGO RISING: 8 of Cups
“I am loosening my hold on what’s already leaving.”

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LIBRA or LIBRA RISING:The Star Rx
“Returning to my whole self is the homecoming I’ve awaited.”

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SCORPIO or SCORPIO RISING: Ace of Pentacles
“Paying attention to the tiniest glimmers makes my life glow.”

 

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SAGITTARIUS or SAGITTARIUS RISING: The Hanged Man
“Stillness is the superpower that soothes my soul.”

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CAPRICORN or CAPRICORN RISING: Queen of Pentacles
“I am willing to wait for what’s worthy of my presence.”

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AQUARIUS or AQUARIUS RISING: 5 of Swords Rx
“My flesh and blood is more than good enough.”

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PISCES or PISCES RISING: 8 of Wands Rx
“Raising the stakes brings me closer to the creative flame.”

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