THE 2019 SCORPIO FULL MOON WANTS YOU TO GET VULNERABLE

The 2019 Scorpio Full Moon sets the stage for some deeply revealing conversations, that will ultimately help you know your worth, says Sandy Sitron …

2019 Scorpio Full Moon The Numinous Sandy Sitron
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2019 Scorpio Full Moon // May 18 2019 // 5:11 pm EDT // 27 degrees Scorpio

A full moon is a high energy time. For some, this high energy time can result in low energy. Think of a toddler who is totally spent after a day at the zoo.

For others a high energy time can feel fulfilling. Like riding a stallion toward your wildest dreams while rainbows shoot out of your finger tips. YESS!! Put a pin in the idea that there is a lot of energy running right now, and if you are sensitive to it, you may feel equal parts drained and energized.

When I meditated on the energy of this Full Moon, the image that came through was of walking the plank of an old pirate ship. But when I got out to the end of the plank, the sea disappeared and was replaced by a beautiful garden. I was granted a safe and soft landing in a bed of flowers.

The symbol speaks of the transformational death process of Scorpio, and the steady abundance of Taurus.

During Taurus season we build the garden of our own self-worth. At the Scorpio Full Moon we test that self-worth by making ourselves super vulnerable. We must take the leap into the ocean of emotion and intimacy to discover what we’re truly made of. If we’re lucky, we find a soft landing in safe harbor. But we’ll never know what we have built if we don’t take the risk and let go of solid ground.

What does this mean for you in your life right now?

Discover the meaning of this Full Moon by noticing where you feel most vulnerable. Where do you feel like you are walking the plank? Is it money? Relationships? Your sacred vocation? Somehow, some way, the answer to the problem is going to have to do with self-worth.

In order to grow, you may have to risk confronting some deeper emotion, or have a challenging and intimate conversation.You may have to push past resistance. Clues you are experiencing resistance are worry, fogginess, sleepiness and annoyance. If you notice resistance right now, journal or talk about it. Air it out.

Taurus and Scorpio are slower moving signs. Even though this is a high energy Full Moon, can you slow down? Maybe if you walk the plank slowly (spend a good amount of time with a self-awareness process), you increase the odds that the fertile garden will appear to catch you when you leap.

It is clear that this “walking the plank” metaphor is about transformation. You are letting go of some old stuff. And you are moving toward something new. It might feel somewhat heart-wrenching. Let yourself feel that. And look for the moments of grace that are there to catch you.

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Full Moon opposite Mercury
Golden haloes and fields of golden wheat.
Look for illumination in everything — in the mundane and the spiritual. The mental landscape is currently confusing — we are collectively dealing with overthinking and fogginess mixed in with a couple of bright ideas. The only answer to such a conundrum is to slow it down and practice mental non-attachment. Try to find the beauty in a blaring car horn. Notice the grace and divinity in a piece of gravel. This will help you feel grounded and give your mind a much needed anchor.

Full Moon sextile Pluto and Saturn
A red carpet.
Walking the red carpet is very different from walking the plank. It’s an honor. A chance to collect an award. To be recognized in some way. This Full Moon has you walking the imaginary plank toward deep transformation. The red carpet aspect helps you remember what you’ve achieved and revel in it for a minute. Transformation and letting go is good and necessary. Honoring what you have built is good and necessary too.

TAURUS SEASON 2019: YOU ARE ENOUGH

Taurus Season 2019 brings transits that remind us to trust that we are enough—with nothing to prove, and a potent innate power, says Bess Matassa …

flower crown Taurus Season 2019 Bess Matassa The Numinous
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Taurus Season 2019 is vivid and alive, ready and willing to receive our lusts and longings. A time for letting the messy, beautiful range of life possess and work through us, Taurus Season 2019 reminds us that when we say “yes” to our status as part of these natural cycles, we can find radiance by moving to the rhythm of what simply is.

The season opens with Venus’ shift into Aries, and a one-two retrograde hit of Pluto and Saturn in Capricorn. Later in the season, Mercury and Venus shift into Taurus, while Mars enters Cancer, bringing questions of self protection to the fore. And, as the season closes with a fat Full Moon in Scorpio, we’re asked to hold fast to the gemstones inside of ourselves without gripping, noticing any place where we feel lack and flooding it with the lubrication of a lush, jungle cat kind of love …

Listen to the full Taurus Season 2019 report from Numi resident astrologers Bess + Sandy HERE and read on for more on the 4 key astro events of the coming weeks …

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Sun in Taurus (4.20-5.21)

Taurus energy asks us to come ever closer to the cusp of what just feels good, resting on the soft petals and sipping the sweet nectar of deservedness without wondering when the honeysuckle might end. Taurus Season 2019 amplifies this pleasure dilation. Where do you think we have to prove something in order to be served? What if you simply had to open your lips and palms and say “thank you” without wondering how you’d earned it? In the weeks to come, simply lie back into whatever feels like a bed of roses, and lap up the cream.

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Pluto Rx in Capricorn (4.24-10.2) + Saturn Rx in Capricorn (4.29-9.18) conjunct the Moon’s South Node

These two epic retrograde cycles carry us through to the “death” energy of the Scorpionic fall, and ask us to investigate where we place authority and who is really calling the shots and pulling the strings. Where do the “shoulds” in your life come from? What patterns feel like they’re “possessing” you? Take this time to notice the subtle polarities in your power dynamics. Give and take. Full and empty. What does your own power feel like when it’s simply coursing through your veins but doesn’t need a target? It’s a moment for recalibrating the controls and rediscovering a potency that ignites us from the inside out.

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Venus in Aries (4.20-5.15) + Venus in Taurus (5.15-6.8)

Venus in Aries brings an opportunity to turn over fresh soil on old romantic patterns. An invitation to move towards objects of desire with no strategy, this transit asks us to simply go for it! Like a just born baby animal, trust you will be perceived as all fluff and frolic. Learn to trust in carnal signals and, after Venus moves into Taurus, to go after what your body desires without shame. Harness this transit to quiet the storylines and to navigate your romantic life by touch, taste, and smell.

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Mars in Cancer (5.15-7.1)

Mars in Cancer harbors its hurts and healing inside a tightly packed shell, while fiercely defending what it loves. This transit is an invitation for us all to slip into our emotion ocean and examine what we can’t let go of. What feelings, memories, and entanglements we would defend with our very lives. There’s no need to try and validate these patterns of protection. Rather, we can take this time to see our defenses as gateways to a deeper understanding of what we truly value. Whatever you’re braving your body against is the secret diary key to what brings you most fully alive.

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Learn more about Bess and her work and check out all her personalized Astro + Tarot offerings HERE.

ARIES SEASON 2019: COME EXACTLY AS YOU ARE

Aries Season 2019 is about stripping back down to our essence, and moving towards our target with an unstoppable grace, says Bess Matassa …

Aries Season 2019 Bess Matassa The Numinous astrology red dress
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Aries Season 2019 urges us to commit to our essence and lay claim to our incomparable competence, completely drama free. A cosmic moment for clean cut confidence, this season beckons us back into what comes most naturally to us, as we rev our engines with focus, fluidity, and the feel-good freedom of our unrestrained life force.

With Aries’ ruling planet, Mars, in mix and match Gemini, there’s a playful sense of possibility in the air. Which superhero suit will you don today? Dig into the arsenal of resources in your repertoire, and reach for exactly what’s needed to hit your target. With sweetheart Venus traveling through Pisces, any hot-blooded need to prove or to possess anything is softened by a desire to simply show up as our most lovable selves.

As Pluto in Capricorn opposes the North Node in Cancer, it’s also a season for connecting to the raw exhilaration of responsibility. What tasks feel most tasty? What acts of self-sufficiency are also kindling for the fire in your Soul? Take this time to tap into the actual thrill of being a self-directed grown-up, making choices that nourish and fortify you for the long-haul as you set off with a sense of tingling anticipation.

This season’s double Libra Full Moons (on 3.20 and 4.19) will also help us say a final farewell to the patterns and partnerships that are dragging us down. So come exactly as you are. Bold and bare and ready to rock yourself all the way back home.

Read on for more on the 4 key astro events of the coming weeks …

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Sun in Aries (3.20-4.20) + Mars in Gemini (3.31-5.15) 
In its uncut form, Aries energy is the rugged sprout through the pavement cracks, and the lick of the crackling match. But the vibe of Aries season 2019, with Mars rolling through Gemini, is more fluid and windswept. Imagine you are a muscle car hood ornament, leading the way with an unstoppable grace. Get secure in your destination, and shoot towards it with your shiny chest bared and your head tossed back.

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Mercury direct in Pisces (3.28) + Venus in Pisces (3.26-4.20) 
As Mercury moves direct again in Pisces it’s joined by Venus, signaling a season of self-assured sensitivity. This energy wants you to love exactly what loves you back, fully and fiercely, and to swim away from temptations which ultimately leave you feeling less than buoyant. Chase only what you truly cherish, leave casual encounters behind, and choose where to go deep with care and compassion.

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Pluto in Capricorn opposite the North Node in Cancer (3.31-4.2019) 
The Capricorn-Cancer axis asks us to shelter ourselves with equal parts structure and sensitivity, and Pluto in Capricorn facing off against the Cancer North Node brings an invitation to become your own protector. When did you last relish taking responsibility for your own existence? Your inner child remembers how it felt to imagine life as a grown-up, making your own choices about what to eat and where to live. Channel this energy and give yourself exactly what you need.

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Double Full Moons in Libra (3.20; 4.19) 
This potent pair of Full Moons asks us to repair any feelings of “less than.” Bringing a chance to examine sticky places of shame, unworthiness, and unlovability, and where these are mirrored through partners, projects, and projections that threaten to tear us down, it’s a time to get back to backing ourselves completely. This Aries season, step outside of any outworn constructs that have left you trapped in cycles that don’t reflect your own precious worth.

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Learn more about Bess and her work and check out all her personalized Astro + Tarot offerings HERE.

THE MARCH 2019 LIBRA FULL MOON WANTS YOU TO GET MOVING

The first 2019 Libra Full Moon brings a moment of forward motion on your mission to align more closely with your Self, says Sandy Sitron …

March 2019 Libra Full Moon The Numinous Sandy Sitron
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Full Moon // March 20 2019 // 9:45 pm EDT // 0 degrees Libra

Climbing and climbing. You are paving your own way up the mountain. The sun beats down and reminds you that you have skin. Your exhalations are heavy as you ascend.

On March 20, we have the first 2019 Libra Full Moon (there are two this year). It occurs as the gate opens to Aries season and we step into an astrological New Year with the Vernal Equinox. This 2019 Libra Full Moon is taking you on a solo hike. You are blazing your trail, healing your wounds, and working with your inner rebel, all the while seeking mental clarity and balance.

This hike is a metaphor for any place you are taking action in your life. On some level, the sheer effort you are taking on reminds you of your life force. Your life force is how you “do,” “act,” and “be,” without impacting anyone else. During Aries season, this translates to: “I climbed a mountain, I am alive!”

Where are you taking action in your life right now? This is the path of your ascension. Can you let yourself just “do” without judging your own actions? A part of you needs the freedom to simply make it happen. So take a chance. It’s right there. Get moving.

It seems peaceful enough on this journey, but there are secretive shadows along the edges of the trail. You may find yourself wondering: who is hiding out there in the nooks and crannies? What is going to leap out and attack me?But the real question is: what has been hiding out on the inside? During this Full Moon in Libra, past wounds and insecurities may rise to the surface.

You can’t control what’s triggered, but you can soothe the source. Use your memory to travel back in time to the small child who felt unsure and afraid. We all harbor ancient fears that rise up here and there. Comfort yourself with words of love and encouragement as you climb.

Now, you reach the top of the mountain. Notice the clean, cool air. You’ve always known this is what you were aiming for—and now that you’re here, it’s time to cultivate an equanimous state of mind. Meditate. Give gratitude for the efforts and actions that brought you here. Focus on your breath. Create your own inner peace.

Meditation is so key at this time, as your goal now is to stabilize. To do this, simply stand on the balance beam and forget to ask yourself if you’re balancing.

So, now you’re settled into meditation at the top of your own mountain. The climb has been challenging. The dangers along the path have been faced. But it was all an act of self-expression that has led you back to yourself. Back to your own crystalline clarity. Your moment of oneness and balance with all that you are.

A Libra Full Moon is technically supposed to be about relationship. And it will be. But make this moment, now, about honing your relationship with yourself. You are dealing with your old scary monsters. You are taking the actions that make you feel the most alive. This is how you will find inner balance and show up authentically in relationship to others.

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Moon opposite Chiron
The secretive shadows alongside the trail. Will something jump out?
The old triggers get activated. Notice that they are the same ones, always. And that if you run toward them instead of away, they become much less scary. This 2019 Libra Full Moon brings a chance to tend to your old wounds. To go deep, down, and under. To the past. To the source. To show up for who you were then and to forgive yourself.

This is deep inner work and no one should explore these caverns without a buddy or at least a harness. You’ve got options, so find the support you need. And if you tangle toes with someone who’s avoiding the deep work, but who is getting triggered and acting out, you’ll at least have a frame of reference for what’s going on.

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Moon inconjunct Uranus
Driving a flying saucer.
Do you know how to work this thing? The controls are foreign and the starship has unearthly functions. Your emotions might be like the flying saucer at this 2019 Libra Full Moon. Normally you have a pretty good sense of how your feelings work. But now you’re traveling in another dimension.

You’re being asked to get used to a new way of navigating emotional territory. It might feel out of control at first, but just keep trying. Even if you get frustrated. Eventually you’ll push enough buttons that you figure out how to drive your ship forward at warp speed, and from there, everything will become possible.